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The priests say that men and women must fast for their sins. "Is that why?" asked the little princess of Avalon.
Morgaine, high Priestess of Avalon shook her head.
"The People of Avalon fast to teach their bodies to do what they are told without making demands it is inconvenient to satisfy. There are times when one must do without food, or water or sleep, and the body must be a servant of the mind, not the master. The mind cannot be set on holy things, or wisdom, or stilled for the long meditaion which opens the mind to other realms, when the body cries out 'FEED ME' or 'I thirst!' So we teach ourselves to still its clamoring.
I get my lap-band in 6 days. I have decided to call it "Barb Wire".
I will listen to Barb Wire.
I will keep Barb Wire calm.
I will milk barb wire for all it is worth.
I hold out my pinkie finger and consider that that will be the size of my pie hole. I figure that I will be giving up texture and well as quantity of food.
I begin at 245lbs.
I have an old army jacket liner that I want to wear. When I wear that jacket liner, I will be walking in the desert with my gun and my dog...walking all the day long.
I do so dearly want to take Partial Differential Equations but class starts in 7 days and I would miss the first 2 or 3 lectures. I don't know that I can get away with that. I don't know that I can withstnd the stress of PDEs while undergoing the anticipated life changes with Barb Wire in my life. I long for the fantastic lectures performed by a certain Scottish Professor. He is soooo crystal clear if sooo very demanding.
I am thinking about my work-out. I would love to return to the weights so I can build back my legs for walking up mountains. I would love to work my upper body so I can scramble in the rocks. I hope I can get myself back to some degree.
The surgery will be in El Paso with Dr. Applebaum. I am self pay at 15 thousand. My fear is that something will go wrong and the hospital will bankrupt me. My sister is going with me and is going to take care of me afterward in Las Cruces. She is a gastro-enterologist so she will know if something is not right with me.
My husband will be taking care of my son home in Socorro while I am gone. While I am gone, the chores will stack up indeed. That would be tough if I start PDEs late. I may never get caught up. I hope to spend as few days as possible away from home.
