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 I am 2 months post RNY and I am relieved to be  alive. I lost a total of 65 pounds since my first consultation with the surgeon. I have a video log on youtube. If you search for Rozinthehouse I can be found there. I am documenting my journey from preop to meeting my goal post op. Please check it out and leave a comment. I need followers. My stomach has been aching all week because I eat saltine crackers  so my doctor said I should not have crackers untill one year post op. I also need to slow down and chew my food. I am probably constipated too uggh!!! My vitamin A, Iron, D, and B1 is low so supplements are needed and I really need to dring 64 ounces of fluid a day. Oh and I need 80 grams of protein a day so I have a lot of work to do but otherwise I feel great and feel like I hit the lottery everytime the scale moves or I fit into clothes. Espeacially after getting passed the 2 week plateau. My advice to all is take it one day at a time. somedays are easier and some days are not but try to keep a positive attitude.

To Obesity,

    I have decided to divorce you. After 20 years of suffering I have decided to seek medical intervention to end my battle with obesity. Ever since I was about 21 years old I have not been satisfied with my body weight. I am saying goodbye to obesity forever. I am so glad that after trying so many different diets that some genius created RNY as a tool to sustain weight loss. Goodbye obesity and hello RNY!! I no longer want to be self-conscious, pull my shirt down to cover myself especially when I stand up to walk across a room. I do not want to hide under a hair weave. no more do I want to shop for plus size clothes and pass up all the cute regular size clothes. I no longer want to be as big or bigger than a man or be the biggest women in the group. I do not want to fill up a seat at church. I am tired of hiding under jackets and black clothes or dreading hot summer days. I do not want to have to unbutton my pants cause their too tight. I want to fit on rides at theme parks like a regular person. I don't want to be called a big girl or big boned especially by the opposite sex. I want to run and skip and jump without feeling like I am moving 2 people. I want to be respected and taken seriously. I do not want to be asked how am I doing with my weight by my in laws. or be humiliated by handsome ministers saying that "some of us can stand to lose a little" or for him to ask my husband did he cheat because of my weight. It was painful being rejected at a talent audition by D Johnson who saw me out of breath trying to rap and looked at me with pity saying ' " why don't you wait till your stronger spiritually" i know she meant when I am not fat! I do not want to be short of breath or have someone offer to help me and say "can I help you?" "don't eat the sour cream." I do not want belly fat that hangs over my pubic area and sits in my lap or love handles hanging off my waist or fat hanging off my back.I don't want  a double chin so I avoid putting my head down. I don't wanna try another diet, lemonade diet, Dr, oz diet, diet pills, vegetarian, counting calories, or diet contests. I am tired of sneaking out just to go on a food binge and asking for two bags so it looks like its for two people when the food is really all for me. I do not want to wear grandma panties that are so big they look like a t shirt. I don't wanna have to hide my stomach during sex and live in fear of being seen naked by my husband. I don't wanna suck my stomach in to make it appear flatter when my husband touches me or move his hand. I don't want him to accidentally touch my stomach and quickly move his hand away because he feels rolls of fat. I don't want my 5 year old to say "mom your fat or too big" I don't want to wear jackets that I cant close. I want to wear white and colorful clothes, i want to tuck my shirt in my pants, I want to wear dresses and skirts, lingerie and cute pantie sets from Victoria secret. I want to wear shorts and bathing suit. I want to weigh less than my husband not look like what my male cousin said" you should be the man and he should be the lady". I do not want rolls of fat and big legs that shake or a butt that moves when I walk. I don't want people to say they can't picture me doing any sports. I ant to be athletic, physically active, take martial arts, have a normal BMI. I want to wear a formal gown for new years eve 2013! I want to renew my vows and have a wedding wearing a beautiful white gown and garter belt. I want my husband to carry me and put his around my waist. I do not want to remain stuck between 320 and 220 pounds. I don't want fat hanging from my armpits and arms when I reach. I want to be less than 200 pounds. I want to wear a size 14 or less. I want to throw away my fat clothes forever. march 1st 2012 will be one of the happiest days of my life. The end of bondage. My surgery is approved and scheduled and I was ready yesterday. Goodbye Obesity