rainlady
I am a 64 year old woman going on 29 - I still feel young and full of life in my heart and soul.. I've always felt young at heart and now I want my body image to project how I feel inside,. For far too long my real self has been masked by an uncompromising body that has continued to slow me down farther and farther every year. I've been overweight starting when my two boys were born. Things really went to the dogs when our oldest son died at age 17. I knew my heart was broken and I just couldn't put it back together. I have a wonderful husband who was devistated as well. We clung to each other and our other son and I continued to eat. After that my weight was consistently over 200 for many years with spurts of yo-yo dieting that would bring me down to 140. I always gained it back and a little more. I developed a serious health condition in 1998 (what a surprise) lol
It has left me with some numbness and disability in my lower legs, feet and hands. Fatigue finally caused me to leave my job of 37 years - not easy for a type A personality,. My job was my self worth. Very tough to adjust and find out who I am, not just what I did for a living. Giving up my "identity" was really almost like a death. By 2003 I was starting to adjust somewhat to not working when our younger son (33) was killed in a car accident. I couldn't believe both of our children had been taken from us,. As you can imagine, things spiraled downhill from there. My DH is the most wonderful man on the planet and I believe we could come through just about anything - even this. There aren't any choices. You either self destruct or take each day one at a time and just try to get through the next day. I finally feel like I just have to take hold of my life and make the huge decision to have WLS. I must have and will have a new lease on life,. This decision is all about becomming healthy and enjoying our retirement years because we deserve it. We've worked hard all our life and I'm going to regain my health so we can truly look forward to each day. That' all for now
