Hello All!! My journey on WLS began almost 5 years ago with my youngest sister getting married. She looked great in her wedding gown and I hoped that I will too someday. It has been a very long and struggling time. I have been overweight since I can remember and just kept getting worse. I have 2 children a boy 14 and girl 10. They are the light of my world. I want to see them grow up, become parents and make me a grandmother (not to soon)!! how can you love someone who doesn't love themself. I am tired of being tired all the time, not being able to sleep, being miserable ALL the time. Not having the energy to do things with my kids, having swollen ankles, back hurting and so forth. I chickened out twice on doing the surgery because I thought i could do it on my own, boy was i wrong. I was in Kohls the other day looking for a bathing suit for my son, and out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimps of something and I turned. The glimps turned out to be me :-( I looked for a moment and cried :'( ... I looked like I was nine months pregnant w/twins and I wasn't!!!!!!!!!!! That was the last straw. I went to a support group meeting in Toms River and saw actual people that had the surgery and it made me feel good to see actual people that have had this done and not just pictures. September 12th is my first appointment to see Dr. Bilof and I am looking forward to my journey with him .