One month out

Apr 15, 2012

A little over one month out and I'm feeling good for the most part.  I had a rough first week after surgery, but that was mainly because of my refusal to take enough pain medication.     Yup, I should have known better. 

I'm down around 30 pounds sine the beginning of February, and feel good about it.  I feel like I look much better than I proably do.  I find things that I think I should be able to fit into from a few years ago, and I'm not quite there yet. It's easy to lose track of what "normal" weight loss is.  I find myself upset if I don't look more than 5 pounds a week.  I have to remind myself that slow is better. 

I'm finding a lot of difficulty eating.  I have started to want to eat things that I'm pretty sure will make me sick.  I was never a big chip eater, but for some reason this weekend I wanted some potatoe chips so bad I could almost feel it.  We went to the lake and I had to run into town to get some food that I could eat and I ended up spending over an hour in that store!  I was searching every label for something that I could eat.  It was very frustrating.  I drove back to the camper feeling quite depressed.  I'm so sick of cheese sticks, and I'm not a big meat fan in the first place.  I will be really working on finding recipes that will not leave me feeling deprived.  It's more difficult than I had first thought it would be. 

Tomorrow is Monday and I'll be doing a presentation in the morning.  Doing the presentations at work have become so much easier for me.  I don't feel as ackward as I did before.  I feel more at ease with people looking at me.  I'm no where near where I would like to be, but I'm near enogh to like what i see. 

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