reagan
2/2/07 Well I will start off by saying that I have been fat pretty much, forever. Feels like it anyway. I actually wasnt in school but afterwards it just slowly came on. Then one day I realized I'm HUGE!! Back in November I went to a seminar on lap band surgery and I filled out the paper work to see if it was covered under my insurance. The next Morning the doctors office called me and said yes my insurance covered it and they set me up with an appt. Well I went through all the nutrition counciling, psych appts, lab draws and diagnostics, I literally ran around getting letters together and dates and proof for 3 months and when I was all done and everything was to be submitted the doctors office calls me up and says they made a mistake and my insurance doesnt pay for lapband! Well I was devastated, I had my hopes up so high that this was it the answer to my prayers and it was all just a mistake. So come to find out my insurance will cover gastric bypass, so I am back now at square one. Luckily there were a couple of girls i know who have had gastric bypass done and they gave me there doctors name. I was able to give this Doc (or I should say his office staff) all my records from the first Doc, She then turned it all in to insurance on Jan. 30th. Now I just waite, I of course have been calling the insurance company daily, today they said they needed one more piece of info which im taking that as a good sign if there not going to approve it why would they even ask for something else. Anyway the Doctors office faxed it over there right before closing time so now i have to wait all weekend till i know if im approved or not and THAT SUCKS FOR ME!! cause im so impatient (something i need to work on) I am an LPN and Im currently in school full time to get my Rn, which means i need to have this procedure done over spring break because i cant miss any school. I know its possible to have it done say on a Friday and be back to school or work by next Friday cause several people around here have done it as long as there are know complications, so that is what Im shootin for! My husband is in the military and he is currently over in Iraq and he has no idea of what I am up to and i am hoping to keep it that way because im hoping to have the surgery and completely freak him out the first time he sees me when he comes home!! Im scared I wont be approved cause I have read plenty of heartbreaking stories on other sites about denial of coverage and so I am crossing my fingers and toes and im praying like crazy!! I am almost to the point of being desperate, my appearance disgusts me, I can barely move let alone walk, just a short trip to the mail box and Im so out of breath its pathetic. This is the biggest iI have ever been in my life and Im just sick over it. My husband left home for training in July and I have probably gained 40 pounds just since then. I have been married for 14 years and we have a 12 year old daughter. My husband says he loves me just the way I am but I know down deep he has to at least every once in awhile wish i was thinner, he is very handsome, and built like a mac truck. He works out and runs and I just dont want to loose him some day because he finally saw enough. Plus im going to be dead by 45 if I keep up this eating, Im 35 now but hobble around like im 80. I have a bad back and last year I was diagnosed with arthritis in it and boy with these last 40 pounds Ive put on I can really tell it. Well I guess thats all for now, maybe I will be back on here Monday with some good news!!
