Rebecca S.
I started out much the same as many folks, a bit chubby growing up, but mostly just a little baby fat. I was active in drill team and cheerleading in school, as well as dance, so I was able to keep much of the weight off, although I never did feel really "thin." Still, I've always been pretty easy going, so I just kept on and dealt with it.
Then college came. Freshman 20?!? Try Freshman 50!!! I was engaged to be married and rapidly adjusting to college, married life, full-time job, etc... Life was busy and we ate that way...fast food, large portions, life on the go. By the time that I graduated college, I had graduated up six or seven sizes. Still, my husband loved me the way that I was, so life went on, whatever the size.
A few life changes after that...I had lost a bunch of weight and was looking at around my pre-wedding days. Went through a divorce, which shed a few more pounds and life was beginning to feel pretty good again. So, in my new "happy" state of mind and while caring for a 5 year old son on my own...life was again full and busy, food was rushed and on the run and the pounds came back.
I had pretty much adjusted to life as a heavily obese person and had given up on finding a true love in the remainder of my lifetime...(so bleak huh!) then lo and behold my darling husband came into my life. Even still, although thrilled to have him in my life, my weight has continued to suck the joy out of things. Things that I have always loved to do, like garden...have become tedious chores, that I no longer can bear to spare the energy to do. I quickly realized that no matter the quantity of my life, it was the quality that counts and with things the way that they are...the quality isn't there. It is a difficult thing to realize that the only one who can change you and your happiness...is you. So, I started in by setting the surgery ball in motion. I am so excited to think of life being free of at least SOME of the constant tiredness and lack of energy. I want to WANT to go places and do things, without it being the drudgery that it has become. I want to be able to give to my family in a way that truly shows them how much I love them. I can only do that with words now and I want to be able to do the action!
