Danna S.
Where do I begin? I started to blossom early. I was big in the chest area and then I was an hour glass shaped girl over night. It was about that time that I started gaining weight. And all this started at age 9. I always felt different from all my friends. I was always the biggest girl. Always the "friend" of all the guys. My first date was a blind date at age 18... Anyways... As far as dieting goes, I've done it all. I did Slim Fast, the cabbage soup diet, the mayo clinic diet, curves, low fat, low carb, south beach, 3-hour, every book I could find.... Nothing has worked. I really tried... but I always fail, miserably.
After always being "the big girl" I met a great guy in college. We were friends for over a year and then a funny thing happened... We fell in love. We've been married for 5 years and have a wonderful 3 year old. He used to tell me every day that I am beautiful. I never believed him, so I guess he's kinda given up on that. In 2005 I had almost everything in order to have my WLS. I had gone through 5 months of supervised diet and was ready to schedule my first appointment with the surgeon by the next visit, when tragedy struck my small family. My husband lost his job and our insurance... It took over a year for my husband to get a job. We just have got back on our feet. My husband has insurance through his job, but it's too expensive for us to add me. So he looked for another insurance that we could all be on that might cover the surgery. He found Blue Cross. They denied me because of my weight.
Now I feel pretty hopeless. I can't afford any insurance, and I can't afford to get a loan to pay for the surgery. What now?
I don't want to live another day like this. But I am. I have a beautiful child, and I want to see every part of his life. I want to see him graduate college, get married, have babies of his own... I don't know if I'll see that. I'm 27 and my body feels 60. I'm angry at all I have missed out on in life. I'm angry about all I will miss out on in the future.
Are there really miracles out there?
