Redboots
Feeling so hopeless today
Jan 09, 2012
I have done everything needed for surgery , except schedule a date. I'm self pay, I don't know how my fiance is financing it for me , but he says to trust him... so I do. I've seen him pull rabits out of hats... so for my happiness, I have allowed myself to believe and blindly move forward in this journey of having a lap band surgery to control my weight... for life.
Long story short, I have a trainer at a lifetime fitness whom has let me down for the most part. She seems very vanilla and not as dedicated as I had originally hoped. But since she is studying to be a true nutrionist or dietician... I was trusting her education backgroud more than just a run of the mill personal trainer... ( I know what training and studying they need to practice, and trust me.... its not extensive or insightfull as a person whom has stuggled with weight problems their whole lives needs) I ran into her today. She doesn't approve of the band. Shocker. In passing said something along the lines of .. "when there is genetic disposition, surgery is not effective for a lifetime of weightloss and most patients gain it back"
GREAT! I"m about to bleed $14000 out of my family's bank account and it might not even work.. a fear I alrady harbored but now the trainer that I have as the strongest resource at my gym is telling me she doesn't approve. She did how ever say , if I've made up my mind, she will be there to support me before and after...but this girl is see through like a black thong under a white dress..... judgement all over that thang.
I'm lost today, I'm feeling a strong gut feeling that worries me that I now won't go through with surgery. How can I not listen to those red flags my body is throwing up.??? Then I sit down to eat dinner, and as I'm eating I think, NO WAY, I have to get the lap band because I would eat 1/4 of whats on this plate..... everytime I ate... so I'd HAVE to loose weight and KEEP IT OFF.. right? I did a search a couple weeks back on a different sight, I think the offical lap band one ... and not ONE NOT ONE person was the same as me. I feel alone and just hope and pray that someone on here responds or reaches out ot me and sees how desperate I am for support and help from someone like me and has a success to share with me so I can be encouraged and move forward with my life. Nothing worse than being on the fence.. nothing happens on the fence.
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Long story short, I have a trainer at a lifetime fitness whom has let me down for the most part. She seems very vanilla and not as dedicated as I had originally hoped. But since she is studying to be a true nutrionist or dietician... I was trusting her education backgroud more than just a run of the mill personal trainer... ( I know what training and studying they need to practice, and trust me.... its not extensive or insightfull as a person whom has stuggled with weight problems their whole lives needs) I ran into her today. She doesn't approve of the band. Shocker. In passing said something along the lines of .. "when there is genetic disposition, surgery is not effective for a lifetime of weightloss and most patients gain it back"
GREAT! I"m about to bleed $14000 out of my family's bank account and it might not even work.. a fear I alrady harbored but now the trainer that I have as the strongest resource at my gym is telling me she doesn't approve. She did how ever say , if I've made up my mind, she will be there to support me before and after...but this girl is see through like a black thong under a white dress..... judgement all over that thang.
I'm lost today, I'm feeling a strong gut feeling that worries me that I now won't go through with surgery. How can I not listen to those red flags my body is throwing up.??? Then I sit down to eat dinner, and as I'm eating I think, NO WAY, I have to get the lap band because I would eat 1/4 of whats on this plate..... everytime I ate... so I'd HAVE to loose weight and KEEP IT OFF.. right? I did a search a couple weeks back on a different sight, I think the offical lap band one ... and not ONE NOT ONE person was the same as me. I feel alone and just hope and pray that someone on here responds or reaches out ot me and sees how desperate I am for support and help from someone like me and has a success to share with me so I can be encouraged and move forward with my life. Nothing worse than being on the fence.. nothing happens on the fence.
