June 11th Sounds Like a Great Date...

May 12, 2012

It took 3 weeks to get my surgery date but I finally got it! June 11th sounds like a great date for a new chapter of my life to begin.

I was on an emotional rollercoaster the whole time. When I first got my approval I was ecstatic. Then the fear set in and I had butterflies in my stomach for the next week. I was going through that Oh My Gosh am I really doing this phase. Then I got angry. I mean really grumpy all the time snapping at everyone angry. That lasted about a week. (a little fyi tmi...I don't have a period so I don't attribute my mood swings to that) I didn't want to read any posts on here cause it just made me jealous of the people who were moving along smoothly or who were complaining about not losing fast enough. Finally in the last week of waiting for my surgery date, the calm set in and I got back on track. I had been eating things I wasn't even hungry for just because I knew they would greatly reduced after surgery and I really was feeling awful about doing that. I had a visit with my RD and she assured me that what I was going through was normal but the fact that I had gotten myself back on track and was maintaining the same weight since I first saw her was a positive indication of my future success.

So now I am less than a month away from being sleeved (as long as I don't gain any weight or take up smoking according to the docs office). I am in the calm but still get nervous and excited at the same time. I have been trying to focus on the things I can control and not worry about the things I can't. I have been reading a bunch of books, taking my vitamins, making sure to get in 10,000 steps a day and drinking my minimum of 64 ounces of water. My father is going to fly in for my surgery and I have a little bit of anxiety about that cause he snores and my walls are thin. I feel bad that his first visit to my new home is to take care of me. I don't know how much sight-seeing I will be up for once I am post op but I am guessing not a lot.

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