Disappointed about my journey being postponed

Jan 03, 2013

I went to the hospital today for my pre-op appointment.  All was well and I was getting so excited about my surgery next week on January 11th.  I thought "THANK GOD, only 1 more week of those dreaded Optifast shakes!"

I got home today and received a call from my surgeon's office and my surgery has been bumped by a week.  Now I know intellectually that this is on 7 days; but i feel like I want to go eat Wendy's or some other bad food.  This concerns me as I know this is the ME that I am trying to fight and change.  Why does something so little send me into a tailspin.  I wolfed down 2 hotdogs (gross and salty) and a Christmas cookie.  None of this made me feel better so why do i do it?  Well, I guess the work on Debbie continues - I see my therapist tomorrow and once again realize, this is bigger than me - My David and Goliath!  But I will SUCCEED!

Wish me luck on the 18th - I hope my liver has lost its fat in order to have my surgery.  I have lost almost 20 lbs on the shakes so I hope so.

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