Rebekah W.

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Sorry its been so long. I had my yearly check up and my doctor said I've lost more than most people loose in 2 years which is great news for me. However I'm starting a new problem of being hungery all the time and Ive only lost 3 pounds in the last month. It's very discouraging. I've decidied after a long heart to heart talk with my hubby that I'm not going to go for the police. Instead I'm going to finish college with a BS in Biochemistry and Molecular Biology and go for my doctorate in Epidemiology. Shooting for the stars I guess. It'll take me a while but it'll be totally worth it in the end to do what I've always wanted to do. I have lost a grand total of 117 pounds so far and need to loose another 30 pounds to be at my goal.

So remembered today that I was supposed to see Dr. Kellum on the 16th of last month. I can't believe that I forgot...oops. I'm in a size 10 now and almost completely in an 8. I really don't recall the last time I wore those sizes. I only have about 40 more pounds to loose, but I'm thinking I want to get to 115 which will be 45 pounds to loose. I'll see when I get to 120. I have my written and agility test for the Chesterfield County Police Dept. on the 18th of this month. I've worked so hard for this so hopefully I won't mess up. I shouldn't though with doing 5 mile walk/run everyday. The push ups are what kill me though, I need to do 11 in 60 seconds and I can do 9, so I'm almost there. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, and I'm sorry for not talking to anyone lately...things have been so chaotic.

Sooooo I'm now at 177lbs! In a size 12! and more happy than ever:) I have now lost 91lbs! Such a wow moment for me, I haven't been able to wear a 12 since middle school, believe me its been a looooong time. I had a funeral to go to and had to stop at a Sheetz for gas and coffee. I never noticed when I was bigger how rude people were. But while I was there in a gorgeous dress and 4 inch stilettos so many people remarked how good I looked and opened doors, stared and I got in front of the coffee line. Talk about a confidence booster. Kevin is happier than ever and warned me not to get "skinny girl mentality" and has talked me into trying out a bikini. Don't know about that, but he promised to be honest on how good or bad it looks on me. So Friday we will go bikini shopping. Kinda nervous because I have never worn a bikini in my life....Ugh anyways gotta get back to the kids and cleaning. and happy 6 month anniversary to me:)

Sorry it's been so long since my last post, there has been so much going on around here. About 2 months ago I was going through a lot of turmoil and split from my husband for a week. We talked and both came to realize that not only was I going through a lot of depression I felt overwhelmed with the load of responsibilities I have. So we decided that I would start going to see a psychiatrist and he would help more around the house and that we would see a marriage counselor. Things are so much better now, our relationship is strong and I am so glad I didn't make a stupid choice of leaving him. We moved to Chester, closer to family and I have now started training to become a police officer for Henrico County. I haven't applied yet because I want to make sure I pass the fitness test. I have been going to the gym everyday. I have now been able to run a little over a quarter mile and walk 2 miles, and I have increased my weight training and can now go over 100 pounds with my legs and over 50 pounds with my arms along with 70 sit ups. I usually leave the gym so exhilarated and not ever without a smile because everyday I have milestones that I accomplish! I'm still having trouble eating and have to actually set times during the day that I make myself eat. I'm never hungry and I usually throw up because of that, but I'm trying more now than I was before. When I had my 3 month check up the doc and nutritionist were very angry at me because I wasn't eating more than 50 cals in a day and not drinking or taking my meds. No wonder I was depressed, right?? So anyways I'm eating about 700 cals and taking all my meds, the only problem I have is getting enough fluids. I reached my second goal of 200 pounds a little while back and now am working on my 3rd goal of 170.

I'm doing well, kinda up and down with the changes in my head...lol. Ive lost 38 pounds since starting this long road:) and I'm only 2 pounds away from my first goal of 230. I haven't been to good with exercising, between time and energy , well I shouldn't even be making excuses, I just need to do it....  We had a great Christmas and I had fun eating real food again, even though it was super healthy and a very small amount. That's all I really have to say. I hope you all had a great Christmas.

 I'm doing great and doing a lot more than I expected during recovery. My pain has gone away completely and I have been walking 30 min everyday. I'm working up to the hour that my surgeon wants me to do. I also have been able to play with my kids and do light household chores everyday. Before surgery I didn't even come close to this amount of energy. I was having trouble with getting enough calories but when I sat down and read the book the team gave me, it said to concentrate on the protein and not worry about the cals. So now that I'm relaxed more, I can enjoy all of this weight I'm loosing:) I'm eating about 70 grams of protein and between 400-500 cals a day, I think its ok.

To all of you who can nibble on Thanksgiving dinner, enjoy! I'm going to enjoy being a cook and making my family the best food ever...lol

I came home yesterday afternoon, it took 4 hours to gt out of the hospital, but I'm ok. Surgery went well, no complications. Im just really tired and in a lot of pain. It turns out that Im allergic to a couple of pain killers so Im on a synthetic that isnt really working. Ive been walking like Im supposed to and it really is helping. The only thing I really have to get used to is understanding when my body is telling me Im done eating. I never realized before that I was eating because my mind was telling me to. So now I have to learn what my tummy is telling me. Im supposed to drink 1oz every 5 minutes, right now I feel tight...so does that mean Im full?? I havent even finished the protien drink....not totally sure how to do anything...haha:) So anyways thats all I can type right now, I need to go lay down.