Sarah30
My Story
Mar 16, 2009
Hi! I am Sarah and I live in Ohio. I have always been overwieght. In my teenage years I always wieghed 180lbs. I got married at 18. Had 4 kids in 10 years and my wieght went from 180lbs to 232lbs. I have been looking into WLS for 3-4 years now. I was originally thinking about getting the Lap band, but after much research it didn't seem the right wls for me. Then I wanted to get RNY, but I didn't meet the criteria(BMI over 40, or 35 with co-mobidity). My husband didn't want me to get RNY because he didn't like that they will cut AND re-route things in my stomach. I tried to make him understand but things didn't work out and he said he'll pay to have me join Weight Watchers. I did Wieght Watchers for a couple of months and lost a total of 10 lbs. My son, who was 18 months at that time got really sick and had to be hospitalized and then developed some breathing problems so I stopped going to Wieght Watchers and gained 10+lbs back that I had lost. Before this I have tried numerous diets and diets pills. I did actually loose 30lbs. on the Atkins diet, but then got pregnant and after having my baby gained 38lbs back off course. I have been depressed to the point of tears with my wieght. I am very unsocial, hate going anywhere. I don't even like inviting my children's friends over for playdates because I am afraid what they will think of me, and I don't want to scare them. I am tired all the time, I think I have sleep apnea but never got tested for it because I always wake up tired. I always walk around in ugly clothes because whenever I see something I like in a store and try it on, it looks HORRIBLE on me and makes me really sad. My knees and lower back hurts ALL the time and when I try to exercise my whole body hurts like he**. for days afterwards. I just want my life, I want to feel active and free. I feel like I am trapped inside this body. I want to be happy and confident about myself. I want to not have pain. I want to run around and play wtih my kids. I want my husband to be able to pick me up and twirl me around! I want to be able to go to the zoo or an amusement park and not feel like I am going to die after an hour or 2. I want to be me! I am always a happy happy person around people and try to make everyone happy, but inside I am SO derpessed, its like this obesity is eating me up inside. I want to get this surgery done SOON so I can start loosing all this wieght NOW!!
