Surprise Message from Surgeon

Mar 09, 2009

I opened my e-mail today to get the shock of my life!  My surgeon sent me an e-mail telling me he has ordered the last pre-op EKG and chest x-ray and is ready to schedule surgery.  Here's the rub...since the battle of the psychologists (last October) and my house getting robbed (December)...and my gym going out of business...and Kaiser sending me a letter referring me to an out-of-plan weight management program (which I took as a not-so-subtle notification that I was no longer in the bariatric surgery program), I have eaten my way back up the darn scale.  I have had a long interlude with my favorite snacks (a.k.a "friends").  I REALLY thought Kaiser had dropped me!  I started shaking when I saw the surgeons message.  I almost had to go throw up it made me so nervous.  I am so scared.  Good grief.  What a roller coaster ride.

Then I went to read another members post-surgery post.  She has the same surgeon.  She had all the surgery day nightmares that I was afraid of...harsh/abrasive nurses, awkwardness and fear.  Wait, wait, wait...hurry up, and wait.  Lots of pain.  Terrible reactions to food afterwards, then the return of serious hunger.  She warned that only the truly prepared dare venture here.

[sigh].  Where do I stand?  I do not know.  I guess I need to figure this out.

I think I'll sleep on it. 

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