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So, on Friday I FINALLY got my date for surgery for April 5, 2013.  I can hardly believe that is finally going to happen.  This has been a long process, Dr. appointments, waiting, tests, waiting,  blood work, waiting, more appointments, waiting (you get the idea).  When I had my surgeon appointment in December and Dr. Gmora said that I was cleared for surgery and had every reason to believe that I was an ideal candidate for the procedure, I was ecstatic!  I hoped that I would hear about a surgery date early in the new year and Dr. Gmora had given me some hope that it may be possible, but as the weeks passed and there was no call, I became discouraged.  I even began to wonder if all this waiting was worth it and I noticed my resolve on some of the small changes I had been working on leading up the the surgery was cracking under the strain of the wait.  But then it happened, with one phone call from the bariatric centre, I was fully committed and ready to do this thing, all it took was the offer of a surgery date!  So there you have it.  April 5 I begin my new life.  I am so nervous about the Opti stage of this journey.  Everything else seems manageable to me but I am afraid of messing up on the opti diet.  I am just going to focus on the fact that I am lucky that it will only be two weeks and count them down!  Anyway, one of my planned ways to manage my hunger/ change in routine around eating is bloging and posting on here so, if anyone is reading, you can expect to see a lot more posts from me!! 

Sarah

 Laying here in bed, it's not so hard to imagine a life where having it all is possible!  I mean, I have a great supportive hot husband, 4 dynamite kids, I'm resting up to go to a job I love and feel passionate about...In short, a lot to be thankful for!  But have I bought in to a lie...can I really have all this and satisfaction with myself?  You see for me my weight is an outward representation of an inward drive for more, more purpose, more awareness, more satisfaction!  Hunger in my life is not just physical, it's psychological too!  In life, I often say to those who see the negative, reason's why things can't be had or done, "why not?"  let's stop asking why we c find it so hard to loose weight, why we should even try, why we deserve to love our selves to give ourselves permission to accept the tool of WLS and rather ask, WHY NOT?  
I'm just really at the early steps of pursuing WLS.  But I have been thinking about this for some time and debating with myself if this is what I need, recently I decided that I am worth it!  My life is worth it, my family is worth it and though I may not be able to "have my cake and eat it too" (so to speak), I will go for the most in life that I can!  I'd like a large slice of life to the fullest with a side of success surprise!  And there's enough here to share with you too!  I have been learning so much from this website and the people here, I appreciate all that people share and hope my journey can add to those to encourage others to go for it, whatever your path is, you deserve to give your life your all!  And today, I'm standing up for myself too!