This is my story.This is my journey.

Oct 08, 2009

Hi,I'm Stacy I live in Tennessee.I am a 911 Operator.It does come with alot of stress;But there are funny times also.
So let me begin my story by saying I have always been over weight as long as i can remember. the only picture i think i have ever seen of myself as "skinny" i may have been about 3 or 4 yoa my brother and I in a brand new red wagon we got for Christmas that year.After that there were several things that happened in my life as I now know were not my fault and nothing i could have done as a small child.That sadly many of us endure and are silent that leads us to our weight gain and downward spiral we go through.
I grew up getting bigger and eating my feelings literally; but strangely not realizing I was only hurting myself. I've been told that is the way to heal My heart,My mind, My body and My soul. My faith in god and the support of a wonderful Husband {MY 2ND} has helped on this journey. HE IS TRULY A WONDERFUL MAN!!! He has been supportive of my journey and has been my rock. I have lost friends because they fill as if my body has changed somehow the person I have always been had disappeared. She is the same person who has always been screaming to get out. She is just getting Healthier!!
I know now I matter to everyone I touch. By this very personal testimonial by anyone I blog or anyone speaks with me.I do have amazing friends who encourage me everyday. I have wonderful co workers of which we talk about many things and we support each other in all we do.
I decided i wanted to check into the lap band surgery after coming home from working 16 hours and my husband always waited up for me even though he himself had been up since 7am and had worked all day.We always discuss our work days. It has always helped us to distress and move on to more important matters family, our relationship whatever needs to be took care of. At this time I am 35 yoa.As we talked I started having breath taking chest pains that went all the way to my back. He asked my whats wrong? I told him; As best I could thru the extreme pain.He said do you want me to call 911.NO I yelled I don't want them to know. Just wait! Thank God the pain stopped and I'm not going to lie I was terrified. my mother had died {when she was 52.I was 29} of congestive heart failure.She too was overweight and a insulin dependent diabetic. I didn't want to leave my children so young. my son just turned 17 yoa and my daughter is 10 yoa. I was setting at the desk and logged onto www.lapbandtv.com I told my husband I had seen the commercial and wanted to do this and i had been secretly researching for about 2 weeks at the time; But i really needed him to be on board. I sat as he read the risks, options, alternatives. He turned and asked my why i had decided on that particular one. I told him less invasive surgery my insides would not be rearranged and if it didn't work we would have it removed.He agreed he would be on board. I want to my seminar 2 weeks later Jan 27Th 2007.A 2 hour drive away.I finally had my surgery May 7Th 2009. Dr Jonathan Ray at Blount Memorial surgical Center changed my life forever. He is a wonderfully supportive DR. It has been a long journey. some people think this is an easy fix. we know its not you have tests lots of tests classes lots of Dr appts. but I would NOT change it for anything. It has been hard,inspirational,eye opening, depressing, and wonderful all wrapped up into 1 . AND I'M JUST GETTING STARTED!!!I wish you all well! HAPPY HALLOWEEN!