Savannah Davis

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So now life is taking its toll on me. I have been doing great with my weight loss but the rest of things going on around me are causing me a great deal of depression. I can't seem to get a handle on my emotions most of the time. I can only hide it while I am at work and that sometimes is very hard. I have to get up and run to the bathroom at times because I want to break down. I get upset and depressed over the smallest of things and then mad at the same things the next minute. My home life has not gotten much better and it doesn't help that money is very tight and I can't seem to pay all my bills. I am really struggling from day to day with all this.

I have an appointment with a psych coming up but I don't know what I am going to do until then. I feel like I am in a haze from day to day and just going through the motions. I don't want to feel this way anymore.

Has anyone else had issues with depression and moods after they have had surgery? I don't know if it is my hormones or just everything coming at me at once.

Lord help me through this and to make it to tomorrow and beyond. Without your help I don't know what I would do.

Things have been changing for me a great deal lately. I love it but then of course it is scary since I have not dealt with this for a long time. The weight loss is amazing. I am so happy I just can't wait to get under 200. I am almost there. It has beena really long road so far and I am only 2.5 months out from surgery and have lost 60 pounds. I am looking of course to love a little over 40 more so I can be under 200 and be to the weight I would love to be.

I am going back to school. It is time I do more about taking charge of my life and the health and welfare of my children. I can't afford to take care of them on what I make. I mean my pay is not bad but I don't make enough to take care of my kids. Especially since the help I need is not always there. I start school on 10/01/2014 to get my bachelors is Business Management. I will at least triple what I make with this degree since I don't have a degree at the moment. So nervouse and and excited.

Pray for me.

Okay, so I know it has been a long time since I have been posting. I have been dealing with a great deal of stuff. My husband just went to the store the other day and bought 300.00 worth of food and it is ALL junk. We get into a major fight because he is trying to sabotage me and all he can tell me is, "what are we not supposed to eat now"? I am trying to get my kids on a better diet but I can't with this. He buys all this food for and everything is the kind of food I can't and DON"T want to have but he thinks that I can just live off of tuna fish and eggs only. I am losing very slowly right now but it is coming off. I know that if he keeps this up then I will fail because there is nothing there for me. I can't afford to go buy a bunch of differnt type of food for myself because I pay ALL the other bills. I don't know what to do anymore... I want this to succeed but it is not working the way I want it to. I mean I am only down about 50 pounds right now and I should be down more but with what he is doing then I don't know...

This is getting very depressing... I don't know how to feel and how I am ever going to succeed in doing this. LORD HELP ME!

So I am thinking about gettng a dog so I have to go out and walk the puppy so therefore more exercise even with everything else I am doing. Hopefully the puppy will help my overall mood and then maybe things will change. It does not seem to be enough. I am not losing any weight anymore and I am only a month and a half out from surgery. I started this stall when I started the Puree fase but it has not picked up again... I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to regret my decision, I really don't. I am trying to keep it together but I am having a hard time doing this. I just wish there was someone close to me that I could get together with and talk about this and work out or something. Someone that can support me in this that is right there.

Don't get me wrong this helps but it is not the same as being able to talk to someone in person. My husband is not that great of a support system since he eats all the bad stuff and still keeps it in the house. It makes it very hard for me. I love healthy food but when none of it ever seems to be in the house then I am stuck with the junk. SO I avoid it and there fore don't get enough food. My heart is heavy right now with all this and I don't know how to feel. I have lost some weight but not really any true significant amount. I have not really left the same pants size I was in. Not much has truely changed when it comes to my size.

I need someone to talk to soon. Please help...

I don't know if this is normal. I have been stalled for three and a half weeks now since starting the Puree diet. I am now working out since I purchased a recumbent exercise bike but I have seen no progress. I don't know what else to do? This is getting so frustrating. I pray that what I have lost is not all that I am going to lose. I need to lose more for my health. If I don't then I don't know what I am going to do. I am getting very depressed. I don't want to resort to going to the Dr. to be started on depression medication. What should I do? I know I am getting everything I need. I can't even eat enough food to reach the 800-1000 calories daily diet. My stomach can't seem to handle that much food right now. I am lucky get to the 500 calories right now. I get all my vitamins and protein...

I don't want to have a break down...

So, I wonder if my stall has ended. I won't really know until tomorrow since I am almost a pound down from yesterday. I hope that it is ended. I could use a little boost right now. I am ready to get back to being able to take care of my kids without being constantly exhausted from carrying around all the extra weight. I mean I could still be at a stall because your weight can fluctuate a pound or so in each direction, am I right?

I just wish there was someone I could get together with and just talk about all this. It helps being on here, don't get me wrong but there is no one around my area that I know of that I can talk to. I mean there is a support group where I work but the thing is they hold this group at the time when I work so I can't make it there and then I don't have anyone to watch my kids that that time. It is so frustrating. I have searched for support groups in my area and nothing comes up. If anyone has any suggestions, they would be greatly appreciated.

Just trying to deal with the issues...

Okay So now I am at a stall with my weight loss. I am starting to get a little depressed because I am eating what I am supposed to eat at this stage in my plan/diet. I only have the eggs in the morning which adds up to 60 calories in the morning then Tuna fish for lunch and dinner since of course I am unable to finish the can at lunch. Then I will do either a greek yogurt/ part of it for a snack or a shake. Then of course my water and protien as well throughout the day. I have been unable to go to the gym do to work and childcare. By the time I make it home my gym's daycare is closed so therefore I can't go with my three year old. I don't know if this is normal. I need some type of resurance or something right now. This is a week that I started the puree diet. I put on two lbs from what I lost initially.

What am I supposed to do? Is this a normal occurence at this stage? HELP!

Okay so now I am three and a half weeks out from getting the Sleeve. I am down about 40lbs and at a stall. I am not sure if this is normal at the stage since I just started the puree diet. I am going to the gym as time permits though it doesn't always happen the way I want it to. I want to be able to at least go 3x a week and see my personal trainer once after that. With work though it is getting hard to be able to make it there. I am going to find a way though.

My next project will be to get my husband to start to eat better. I am now at a lower weight than him and I want him to be around for me and out kids longer than what he would without making any changes. I just made a major lifestyle change and now it is his turn. Especially since he only eats meat, potatos, pasta, cheese and junk food. He will not eat any fruits or vegetables. It makes it very hard for me to keep on track with this since that is all that is in the house. (He does all the shopping for food.)

I guess I am leaving it for now.