I Begin the Journey

Jan 26, 2009

Well, today I took the first step into a new life and a new me.  I scheduled my first appointment.  This is something that I have debated about for the last couple of years.  With much research and discussion with my wonderful husband, I have decided to make this change to be healthy.  You know I think the worst compliment I ever recieved was from one of my sisters boyfriend's ( you see see was the bombshell and I was the smart one) he said "you know Sandi is much prettier in the face but she doesn't have the body."  I guess that is the way it had always been for me.  Even when I graduted from high school I weighed 127 and was still considered fat.  I guess I got comfortable in life and let myself go.  I feel like I just never measured up.  Know one knows how bad it hurts to have your six year old tell you how fat you are.  I was at the dentist the other day with my precious six year old and he was talking to the hygentist and said to her talking about me "she is really heavy too"  I wanted to cry so bad but you just smile and die a little more on the inside.  Well no more, I am tired of crying, I am for the first time going to do something for me.  Wish me well and put me in your prayers.

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