MICHELLE BROWN
Hi Everyone. My name is MIchelle. I am 31 ( I will be 32 Feb. 26). I am married to an amazing man and we have 5 children together. My husband's name is Chris and our 5 children are: Destiny ( she will be 15 in April), Arianna 10, Kaylee 8, Chris Jr 5, and Jazlynn 2. Chris and I been together for almost 16 years ( may 29, 1997) and been married for almost 12 years ( may 18, 2001)
I did not struggle with my weight since childhood. I was a pretty skinny kid. I endured child abuse from the hands of my father and struggled with depression as a teenager. i dealt with my depression through food. yup you all guessed right I am a depressed eater. before i got pregnant with my oldest I was 16 and i weighed 190. by the time I was due I weighed 254. In 10 years time i weghed 300.
On Octotober 28, 2008 I had RNY gastric bypass performed by Dr Sheldon Randall... I didnt feel 100% comfortable with him, but i wanted something done since I have tried so many failed diets. 10 months out i only lost 69 lbs. and i stayed at that weight. I worked out at the gym. I cant say i ate exactly the way i was suppose to, i am a very picky eater. 15 months out of surgery i found myself pregnant again, I only gained 6lbs. after a tough pregnancy and delivery i was my lowest at 204 but went right back to 217. when i saw randall about 2 months after delivery i began to look into revision and i asked him about and he told me i didnt need it..
2011 was awful year for me. the 12th day of the new year i lost my grandmother, she raised me and showed me how to be a woman..she lived with us the last 3 years of her life.. my oldest daughte was diagnoised with bipolar.. i ofund out my bestfriend of 10 years was jealous of my marriage and tried pretty good to sabotage it! she wrote a letter saying she was another woman and that my husband was cheating on me with her for 5 years. which lead me to not know what to believe and i wandered off and had my own affair. and by that fall my life was on a whirl wind of falling out of control! by christmas time i was able to pull my family together and put the pieces to that nightmare together.
My husband and I really got our act together in 2012. we worked on all the negativity from 2011 and put it behind us and really pushed forward... we fought real hard for what we have.
in that time of the fall 2011, old habits die hard! i started eating my way through depression again.! by march 2012 i realized i had gained about half of my weight back, so i went back to the surgeon, and this is what he told me (smh) u are not meant to be skinny, u are meant to be a big girl so let it go... i was so broking down at that point when he said that. so i sought out to see a new doctor which was a total failure bc he was randall's friend.
in May 2012, my brother did the ultimate beytral to me he punched my daughter in the face, and instead of being an adult and walking away and waiting for my husband and i to get home.. so i almost lost my children to protective services, however i am not that mother that just sits around and does nothing about anything, i did exactly what dcf told me to do and i got restraining orders and pressed charges, they also told me i should move my daughter.. so in November i packed my husband and 5 children up and moved from where my children and i are from ( massachusetts) to my husbands home state of connecticut.
we love it here. for christmas we got our kids puppy which we are so happy we opened our home to such a little fella...
i saw my new pcp for the first time about a month ago ( jan 2 ) and she suggested revsion surgery to me. In my head i said finally someone on my page, she refrerred me to a surgeon that specializes in revision surgery. so i am in the process of getting everything this new surgeon needs to become his patient...
I am excited to start this journey again..I am looking forward to a healthy me!
Chris and I have 100% worked out every struggle we been through and made an even tighter bond.. its crazy that so much negativity had to happen to make us that much closer..
so there is my story, yes i am willing to share what ever with whom ever. i am also gunna use this to log my progress so i can look back and see, so i dont loose sight of what i have been through and how hard i worked to get to this point!
