Apr 16, 2006

It has been a long time since I have updated my profile. I need to try and do better.

Anyway, today we had a little get-together and Melissa R from So Cali was here and I got to meet her. Also in attendence was some of Melissa's family, her sons, Dave and Bev, Kristin in Calif, Jaci and Sara Gianossa. I only got a couple of pics.

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This is Kristin and Melissa.

This is me and Jaci.

This is me, Kristin and Jaci.

Well, that is all for now. Can't wait for the next get-together. :)


Nov 30, 2005

It has been a long time since I have updated my profile. The day before my 10 mon. anniversary of my surgery, I finally hit my 100 lbs. Finally made it to the century club. Now, I just need to get under 200 lbs. That is my next goal. Here are a couple pics of me and my puppies. :)

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Aug 07, 2005

I posted this on the California message board and thought I should post it here also:

Hi everyone. Some of you know who I am, some of you don't. I don't post a lot on here but am always reading threads and hoping for the best for everyone. So, I am now gonna put myself out here and see what happens.

I will be 41 on the 23rd of August. I have always been shy. It is hard for me to make friends because of that. I was teased a lot in grade school for wearing glasses and I think it put me into a cocoon ever since. I pretty much keep to myself.

When I was almost 6 yrs. old, we moved to the town my dad grew up in. That is where I live today. My dad died at the age of 42 of a sudden heart attack. It was 2 days after my mom's birthday and a little over a month before mine. My mom died almost 4 yrs. ago, 4 days before my birthday so needless to say some of my birthday's have not been the happiest.

Up until my mom's death, I lived with her. When I was home, I would stay in my room watching tv, being on the computer.... That was another one of my cocoons. I lived in that house until my sister basically kicked me out. (She was the executor of the estate.) It was for my own good though. I had gotten into a deep depression that took me months to get out of and was off of work for 6 months because of it. I was truly on my own for the first time in my life. It was scary and exciting at the same time. I lived in my apt. for 1 1/2 yrs. Once I got the money from my sister paying me out for my portion of our mothers house, I rented a house. A few months later, a adopted my 2 Shih Tzu's, Mocha and Max. I have pics of them both on my profile. I have one sister and 3 niece's. I love them all.

I decided to get WLS because my dad died at age 42 of a sudden heart attack and my mom died at age 60 of cancer. She was an obese person and I truly feel if she was thinner, they would have caught the cancer sooner and she might have lived. I just don't know though. I have my 2 puppies, who recently had their first birthday, and of course my sister and my nieces. I want to live to be with them for many years to come. I have one problem though. I still live in a cocoon.

My life at the moment consists of working, watching tv, playing with my pups, being on the computer and I also am a photo volunteer here at OH. (PLEASE, do not send me pics as I cannot upload them for you. I can only do pics I am sent from the head honchos!) And yes, I have done some of the pics here on the Cali board.

I was also briefly married, VERY BRIEFLY! I was also BRIEFLY pregnant but miscarried, for whatever reason. I have always wanted kids and I am now getting to that point that I may never have them and that makes me sad. I would so very much like to find that special somebody to spend the rest of my life with. But, how can I being locked in a cocoon?

So, I suppose this is my first step. I had my WLS last Jan. I have lost 85 lbs. so far. I have my 6 month check up tomorrow. I know, I know, it is a little late... Hopefully my health will continue to be good. Now, it is time for my mental attitude to change.

I go to support groups. I went to the after-the-support-group get together. But, I stayed around people I already knew. I did meet a few new people but there were a lot more to meet. It is just really hard. I did host a get together at the end of June. A few people showed up and I was REALLY greatful for that. My mind being hard on myself was thinking no one would show. That I was not important enough....

So, now I am looking at going to another get together this month. I hope to meet more people and come out of my cocoon some more. Like I said before, this is one of the first steps to doing that. I am putting myself out there for you all to see. You may or may not like what you see but either way is ok. I am learning that not everyone will like me. But I am starting to like myself. I still have a long way to go.

I am going to wrap this up now. If you read this far, thank you. If you didn't, that is ok too. I hope to someday meet more of you in person. I will probably still be the quiet one but once you get to know me and I get to know you, I won't be so quiet.

Thanks for reading my story. It has been emotional writing this but I think it was worth it. :)


Jul 29, 2005

I had my profile redone today. I love my puppies and after much consideration, changed the theme to one with Shih Tzu's. :) So, here are a couple of pics of mine. These are from Nov, 2004 to Jan, 2005. I need some recent pics of my boys. In case you are interested, they are brothers and they were 1 yrs. old July 26th.


Jul 16, 2005

Oh wow. I did not realize today was my mom's birthday until I just wrote the date down. She has been gone almost 4 yrs. Time sure flies. :(

Anyway, I decided to put down my url for myspace. I know a lot of people here are on it. If you want to add me to your friend's list, my url is http://www.myspace.com/sno543 and you have to know my last name. It is "M" on there. I was getting all kinds of wierdos wanting to add me so I kind of went private. I need to do more on there but I suppose I will in time. :)


Jul 14, 2005

It has been nearly a month since I have updated my profile so here ya go.

Since my last update, I finally got the results of my ASAP ultrasound, 2 weeks after I had the test. They said I have "sludge" in my gallbladder. After doing a little reading, I did find out that it is something that can go away by itself or it could turn into gallstones. I had a CT scan last week. I should have my results when I go for my 6 month check-up.

I don't post on the Cali board too much anymore although I do read most posts everyday. I have been keeping busy as a OH volunteer. I will not say what I do for OH but most of my time is spent behind the scenes now.

I will try and remember to update after my 6 month appt. Oh, BTW, I have now lost to date 85 lbs. The weight is not coming off as quick as it once was but as long as I keep losing, I will be happy. I am now at 224 lbs. I would like to get to 180. The dr's office says 170 but I am not sure about that. Guess I will have to wait and see. Bye for now! :)


Jun 16, 2005

Went to the surgeon's office today and saw the PA. He said it sure sounded like a gallbladder attack. Even pushed on the area and it was tender and it radiated down. OUCH! He seemed to be so concerned about it that he got the radiology place to get me in there today. He said if it needed to come out, it is better to schedule it rather than having it taken out on an emergerncy basis. I should get the results back from the ultrasound next week sometime. Hopefully, it will be early next week since they put ASAP on my paperwork. I would like to know ASAP what is going on. I just hope that if I have to get it taken out, I won't be off of work too long. Guess I will know soon enough.


Jun 14, 2005

Had what I think was a gallbladder attack today. Intense pain on my right side right under the ribcage. It lasted about an hour. It has taken me most of the day to recover and get some energy back. I called the surgeon's office after asking on the CA message board about gallbladder pain. I have an appt. on Friday morning the 17th.


May 29, 2005

Hi everyone. I know, it has been a LONG time since I last updated but here I go.:)

My surgery and hospital stay was as normal as they can go. I went home 2 days after surgery. Had nothing for pain except some Lortab for a headache since the day after surgery. I feel very lucky it went so well. My friend had surgery almost a month ago and it was just the opposite.

I woke up this morning and weighed myself. 1 more pound and I will have lost 70 lbs and will be 239. I cannot remember the last time I have weighed this little. My niece, who just graduated high school (I have not seen her for several months) said I was little. I have also had people say how "skinny" I am getting. No one has ever used "SKINNY" in a sentence describing me before! How wierd. I am still not used to all of this. I guess my head hasn't caught up yet.

My doctor's office has my goal at 170 but I am going to go for 180 since I think 170 is too low for me. I am tall and big boned. I am currently in a large top and size 18 pants. Although, I have to admit that my pants are starting to get a bit baggy on me. I will probably not buy more pants until they are way too big. I did that when I had surgery. I was wearing a size 24 and did not buy more until I bought the size 18's. I know, I know, I probably looked REALLY sloppy but I cannot afford to buy new pants everytime I go down a size. I will accept donations for size 16 (Did I really say "SIZE 16"???) jeans, tall preferred. If anyone has any to donate, e-mail me. :) Thanks.

Anyway, I guess that is all for now. My next dr's appt. is not until the end of July. That will be my 6 month check-up. Hope everything goes well. :)


Jan 17, 2005

Well, my sister will be here in a half hour or so. Need to finish getting the pups stuff packed up. They will be staying at my friends house while I am in the hospital. I am going to miss my kids (puppies) very much. But, I also know that if I do not do the surgery, my time with them would be very limited.

My dad died at age 42 of a heart attack, one month before my birthday. He was adopted so we did not find out until a few months after he passed away that his whole family had fatal heart attacks at a young age. I am 2 yrs. away from that age now. My mom died 3 yrs ago, 4 days before my birthday and 21 yrs and 1 month to the date that my dad passed away. Wierd. Anyway, she died of cancer. She had cervical cancer when she was 38 or so. She had cat scans the last 5 yrs or so of her life to make sure the cancer was not coming back. We did not know she had it until 2 weeks before she passed away. She was very heavy so I believe that hindered the doctors finding the cancer until it was too late.

So, I have my 2 pups, 3 nieces and a nephew I would like to see grow up. These are my main reasons for having WLS. Besides the health issues and if I get cancer or heart problems, I have a much better chance of surviving if I am healthier than I am now.

I will update again when I am home from the hospital. :)

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Modesto, CA
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Jan 20, 2002
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Day before surgery.
Down 102 lbs. Thanksgiving Day, 2005

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