Was it worth it?

Nov 21, 2010

I'm four weeks out tomorrow.  I've only lost 19 lbs.  I know there's no way I would've lost 19 lbs on my own before surgery, but it seems awful slow compared to everyone else on here. 

I used to read wow moments & success stories for motivation.  Helped me to be excited for my surgery & to see my progress. 

Week #1 - Gained 9 lbs
Week #2 - lost the 9 lbs plus 12
Week #3 - 2 week post-op appointment, down a total of 16 lbs
Week #4 (now) - I'm down 19 lbs. 

I know I'm not exercising - I'm weak. 
I'm not getting enough protein - it's all disgusting & I can't seem to force myself to drink more than a couple sips. 
I'm not getting enough liquids.  I'm thirsty, which means I'm dehydrated, but I can't gulp like I want to.  Like I need to.
I'm in phase III of the diet stages (there's only four stages in my program) and last night was my first meal that made me ill.  I didn't vomit, but it felt horrible. 

I was supposed to return to work today, but I didn't.  Working from home.  Feeling guilty.  But I'm weak.  I have to commute on a train & I don't have the strength to stand & ride. 

Yep, today is a depressed day. 

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