Soul1sista
For about the majority of my life, I have taken care of people. I raised 3 children, whom I adopted. I started all of this at an early age. I don't regret my decisions. However at some point in time, I lost myself. I have always been the type to take CONTROL of everything and everyone. I feel like, since the kids are grown, well almost 1 is 17, that it is my time to shine. I lost myself, forgot about ME. I repeatedly did for others and not myself. So I found myself a little. I start doing and worrying about me. Sometimes people can be so unappreciative. After I think about all the SACRIFICES I MADE. And I found that out. Only after steering away from those types. Becoming a loner, for fear of being hurt or challenged. But now I want my life back. I want to meet people.. I am a beautiful, caring person. I can now say No. to somethings, but food. I have tried all diets. Success and some NONE. Now I want to experience life. And not feel like my weight is holding me back. I want the motivation that I give others back, cause I am one who appreciates. I am focusing on me, and therefore I am considering surgery. After many failed attempts, this is my LAST RESORT. I currently weight 300lbs. I once weighed in at 320lbs. I lost 55lbs but as you see, I am slowly approaching that again. I told myself I would NEVER go back to that weight again or else. I need some intervention NOW. I am a little indecisive on with i want the lap band or gastric bypass. But now I have been reading about this VSG. it all sounds good. But for surgery I have my reasoning. BUT ON TOP OF IT ALL, I AM SCARED OF DYING FOR TRYING TO BE SLIM. I have already been to a seminar, but I go for a consult on the 7th of Jan. 2011...I would appreciate hearing from others. Why did you choose the surgery you did.
