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Hey all!

What an amazing week! Lost 8 lbs and Im rockin the weight loss! This weekend I decided to do something a little drastic with my hair. I dyed my bangs red. I had it like this about 4 years ago and I really liked it. Figured since Im getting my confidence back, I might as well rock the red bangs again! May not be everyones cup of tea, but Im loving it! Took like two days to do because I had to bleach the black dye out first. It started off looking like a disaster, but I finally got it right! lol.

Also, went clothes shopping yesterday. Buying stuff thats way too small that Im really looking forward to fitting in to. Kind of like goals and landmarks. Im still a size 26, but slowly slipping in to size 24. Some 24s are fitting me. My 26s are definitely getting to big.

Well, not much else going on. Today Im packing, cleaning and babysitting for a friend. So busy busy busy as usual. More to come. ^_^

DOWN EIGHT POUNDS IN SIX DAYS! FUCK YEA! My goal is to be under 200 lbs by my birthday. Not sure if thats a realistic goal because it gets much harder to lose the smaller you are. But July 15th, the best birthday present ever would be to be in Onederland! So 56 lbs in 2 months, Im going to work for it. Working out an hour a day. Ive added weights to my workout now as well. I needed to get my arms working. Id like to get rid of as much flabby flab as I can on my own.

Also, more excitement for me! One of my favorite bands are playing in Austin on June 1st! I just got my tix today. This is probably the last thing that Gary and I will be able to do together. Going to see Local H at Emo's in Austin. Their new CD comes out on Tuesday and I cant wait to hear it!

Jeez, I havent been trolling the OH boards like I used to. SO much going on. I cant wait to get moved. Still waiting to find out our moving date and address. Also, we have an approximate date on when Gary ships. Anywhere between June 18th-25th. But even thats not certain, afterall it is the Army. lol.

I have PUSHED myself this week and Im hoping to keep it up for many weeks/months to come. Ive lost 4 lbs in 5 days and the weeks not even over yet. Im just so proud to be back on track! Im looking forward to going to Schliterbahn this summer! I wish nothing more than to feel confident in a swimsuit. I know I still have a long way to go, but keeping at it will get me there eventually. If not by this summer, I have December to aim for. Im going to the Disney Resorts! So Im bringing a new (hopefully A LOT smaller) bathing suit and I cant WAIT! I'll be with my uncle and family and I cant wait to show them how fantastic Im doing. Pretty much all of my family is overweight and I cant wait to show them that all it takes is a will and a way.

WOW! My legs are throbbing right now. Just got off the treadmill after working out for more than an hour. Made 1.8 miles again. I can tell Im atleast improving health wise because when I started working out I could barely do 15 minutes of working out at like 1 mph. Im hoping monday to go 2 miles. Dont mind how much over an hour I have to go for, but I need to keep pushing myself.

I dont want to fall off track. I want to be healthy, happy, and even more confident than I already am. It is SO hard food wise. I had to stop driving on this one road by my house just because it has all the fast food resturants on it. On the weekends we usually go over a friends house for some gaming, but thats so ough food wise too. Usually I bring food that I can eat but I always end up picking at something they have. Last time it was Ranch Doritos. I had 3 doritos, which isnt a problem BUT it shows my will power at times. Im just really hope I dont fall in a hole when my hubby leaves. I hope I dont eat too much and I hope Im not too sad to get off my butt and keep exercising.

Im pretty excited about a lot of traveling that Im going to be doing in the coming months though. At the end of May we are going to FL to visit the mother in law and my best friend. Also, not sure when but Im hoping to go up to NY to visit some family and old friends. Then in December Im going to DISNEY WORLD! YAY! With my uncle and his family. Im also planning a trip to California to visit my mom, dad and sisters. I miss them so much and havent seen them in atleast TWO years. So I will be keeping busy when the hubby is gone and I hope the time just flies.

Everything finally hit me like a ton of bricks. My hubby is going to be gone for 13 months atleast, in a very dangerous war zone. Im going to be alone for more than a year. The longest Ive ever gone without seeing my hubby was while he was in basic, and that was hard enough. We are moving, traveling, and spending a lot of money that we cant really afford over the span of the next month. I was very lazy the last week and only ended up losing 2 lbs total for the entire week. I wasnt exercising, I was eating a bit more than I shouldve and I was just basically just feeling down in the dumps.

Monday I changed my point of view though. Its time to get back on track, stick to my healthy eating and really push myself while exercising. Yesterday I did 1.61 miles on my treadmill, .61 more than usual and I need to keep progressing. I walked for over an hour and plan on going even longer than that today. I just need to keep going longer, further, and faster. This is just a tool and the weight doesnt just fall off magically. The exciting thing is when my hubby gets back he will have a new and improved wife. I cant wait for him to see my progress over that year. I just need to remember that so I can stay on track always.

I had a pretty fun weekend though. Friday night we had a cook-out and played D&D at my friends house. So much fun as usual! I also got my haircut. Same as usual, I keep it pretty short just because its SO easy to wash and air dry. Long hair required WAY too much attention. lol. Hopefully after I treadmill, I'll take some pics of my new haircut. I also need to take another pic just so I can keep documenting my progress. If I like the pic, I might even change my avatar, hehe. =P

Woo!

Well its been awhile! A lot longer than I usually like to go without posting but Ive had a lot of real life to catch up with and enjoy! First off it looks like we are moving! We got a place on post and it should be ready around May 28th. Its in a quiet area on post, so that definitely makes me happy! The outside of the houses look a little old but from what Ive seen so far the insides are really nice. Im really excited! The only thing stopping us from moving would be if Gary doesnt get his orders before its time to move. That would be pretty tragic because everything else is organized and ready for our move.

This weekend Gary and I went to the Scarborough Renfest with a couple of our friends. It was AWESOME! As soon as Im done with my bloggy thing I will post a couple pictures. This Renfest was HUGE, felt like the grounds were even larger than the Texas Renfest we went to back in November. SO many shops, awesome costumes, and shows! Id mention the food, but since I couldnt eat most of it Id rather not think about it. lol. We spent WAY too much money though. Of course there were certain things that I just HAD to have, lol. I got a rose made out of metal, a chain mail ankle bracelet, and a wizard statue. I was most proud of the statue because the shop had this guy sitting there making all these clay statues by hand around a coat hanger... I get home and turn my statue upside down and on the bottom.... "MADE IN CHINA" You have got to be kidding me... lol.

We walked around for SEVEN hours. I figured that was awesome exercise, but it only ended up disappointing me. When I weighed myself that morning I was 269 but when I weighed myself the following morning I was 272! How do I gain 3 lbs. by working my butt off!!?!?!?! Literally. lol. Now Im at 271, well 270.8 So the scale is still moving downward. Was just sad to see 269 one day then have it shoot up to 272. But oh well, I cant let stuff like this bother me. Just need to keep chugging along. It just feels like its going so slowly.

Another big thing that happened this week is my Dr. put me on birth control. He thinks there is a chance that having BC regularly can also aid in regulating my period and possibly getting it back on track. I really hope so. He put me on the NeuvaRing. What an odd little contraption. I dunno, I just cant visualize how it works. It just seems silly. lol. Not to mention makes sex a bit uncomfortable. Its so weird! My hubby was like... "Should I take it out?" And I just start laughing... "I dunno, obviously nothings working with it in!" LOLOL. So I need to ask my Dr a lot of questions and/or find a new method of birth control because this one is a bit too weird for me. Even on the package it says... "Ring may fall out during bowel movement, intercourse, or just randomly" LOL. Im not sure how much I like that thought.

Hmm, well I guess thats about it for now. Glad that I can get back on OH. Hopefully this week has me a little less busy so I can check in a lot more often.

To sum up my blogging, I copy and pasted from the Thursday WLS Express again! lol. So much easier than typing things twice. 

I havent been around in a couple days. Ive actually been really busy! Babysitting, Drs. Appointments, housing search, the list goes on! Today was pretty exciting though! I found out that I will have a house on post when my lease is up. The area isnt too bad either. It should be a 2 bdrm duplex and its in a quiet location. So far I cant complain! It kinda looks like the houses are getting dated in this area but I'll live. We will have A LOT more space, we'll be a lot more closer to the things we need on a daily basis and we should be paying the same price as we did for our smaller 1 bdrm. Dont get me wrong... My apt is GORGEOUS! But I think the larger place on post would be much more beneficial.

Also! I got birth control! For all that dont know... I have PCOS and dont get my "cycle" regularly. My weight loss should "hopefully" get everything back to normal. As of yet, no such luck. But my Dr. wants me on birth control just the same. My hubby is leaving in two months and I plan to enjoy his ummm.... "company" as much as possible. LOL. My Dr doesnt want an accident to happen especially this early into my surgery so there you have it! I was put on the "NeuvaRing" There is also a possibility that the BC will help get my "cycle" going.

I had a very busy weekend. Mainly spending time with some friends, but also accomplishing a few things. Everything is in order for me to move in May. Now all I have to do is wait. Hopefully a house will become available on post and I will know about it around Aprilish. Ugh, also on Friday hubby had his ID taken by the people at the gate. They said his birthday was rubbed off and he needed to get another one... The pain in the ass about this is my hubby has NO other form of picture ID except his military one. So, they take his military ID, and he has no way to get on post... So we had to go home and get a bunch of papers for his new ID, but the kicker is we had NO way for him to get back on post to get the new ID. So I had to put him in the TRUNK! LOLOLOL! You have no idea how fun/funny this was. Kinda scary though that it actually worked.   Oh man, if they wouldve picked em for random vehicle search I wouldve been in some trouble though, heh.

Something else interesting that happened this weekend. Hubby ordered Chinese food. I got this steamed chicken and veggies thing. I figured I could put some away in my mini containers and have lots of yummy food for the week. What I didnt plan on is having lots of yummy food for the MONTH! When I started seperating the food in to the containers I got through SIX containers and realized I was only HALF way done. LOL. When we used to order Chinese food I would eat an ENTIRE platter, crab rangoons, an egg roll, and of course a fortune cookie. Now that one platter can feed me for a month, lol. It was just a sharp realization of the massive change that I have done to my body. Still kinda depressing though that I can make such a HUGE change and still only be losing less than 1 lb a day. My goal seems so far away.

Hmm, A really GREAT thing that happened this weekend. I fit in to pants that never fit me before! My mom bought me a whole bunch of clothes a few months back and I just stored them away. I knew Id be needing smaller clothes eventually if the surgery thing ever worked out. Well, I was right! They are still size 28s. But when I tried them on the first time I couldnt even get the zipper anywhere NEAR closed, lol. Now they fit perfect! Actually, they even have a little extra wiggle room. It was the first thing in cement that made me see I was losing weight. A scale is just numbers (VERY IMPORTANT NUMBERS! brb weighing myself) but this is evidence that I can see. 

Last night the hubby and I played D&D till almost 1:30am! We got to our friends house at 6 and we were there forever! lol. It was a lot of fun though. I just started drooling a bit towards the end there, lol. Oh, just fyi... I copied the first 2 paragraphs from the Sunday WLS Express. lol. It sums up everything from this weekend pretty perfectly. Also, Im being lazy and dont feel like typing the same thing over again. lol.

I went to see Paulette today to see how I was doing. This was my month check-up. I was 2 lbs short of the goal she set for me. She also has down a different starting weight for me. She said I was doing great and to lose "36 lbs" in one month was amazing. I still felt bad about not hitting my goal though. I just feel like I should be losing weight a lot faster. I have about 200 lbs that Id love to drop but that just feels so impossible at this rate.

 

At any rate, Im not giving up. Im keeping up with my fantastic eating habits and my ever growing exercise routine. Im doing my best to stay optomistic as usual. Hopefully the hubby and I can get out and do a lot more outdoor activities because it is SO nice outside. Tomorrow we are having a picnic with all of Garys coworkers. Its at this gorgeous lake near us. I hope there is activities and not just a bunch of guys getting drunk, lol. I'll be sure to post if its good or bad, hehe.  

WOO! I had so much fun yesterday! I got to go down range and try out all the weapons that my hubby uses on a daily basis. They had the M240B, M249, M4 Carbine, and M250 Cal there. I got so dirty! lol. There was a lot of people there so I only got to try out two of the four guns. The 240 and the 50 cal. I wasnt leaving without trying the 50 cal. All the guns had live rounds except for the 50 cal. But it was still awesome! I posted some pics in my album, check em out if you want! I felt like such a badass yesterday, lol.