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I realized that I was doing all of this chatting and never took a minute out to tell everyone something about my self :o)so I am redoing that part so everyone can get to know me better.

Hello my to all of my new HO family members. My name is Sophia Ramirez I am 31 years old {b-day is on the 27th will be 32 then ha}, self employed {I sell lingerie and adult romance products} the Mother of sabrina 13, samantha 12, kenneth jr 10, the foster mother of tiannya 3, bishop 2 and glen 1.
I am so looking forward to adopting my 3 babies they have been a big part of my life for awhile now and I cant see not having them around everyday. I have been investigating this WLS for some time now and thought it was the right time now to make some moves to a better healthier life. I have been battling with my wieght for a long time since I was a teen but I was never so over wieght as I am today. as of this date "I stand at 5' 4" tall wieght at 345lbs and mt BMI is 59.2 super obese.
In 1999 I had a slip and fall injury where I injured my back and found out I have a pinched nerve. so I put on the pounds after this because of the pain I did go outside or do do much unless really important. I was and still not able to do simple things like mop floors,clean,wash dishes or even walk a half a block to much for me to handle at times and I just cry. a year after I had my fall I started having a sever muscle spasims that I could notbreath I felt like they were cutting off my breath.

so my weight just piled one and I couldnt do anything about it. I heard about the surgery and at first thought OMG I could never do anything like that! Then of course came the negative reviews about the surgery so I was really not gonna do that! Then came the doctor who told me that me cholestoral was very high and with my weight being what is was I was a candidate for heart attack or stroke WOW I was the scared out of my mind with the though I could die just like that! ever since I have been on a mission to find out more about this surgery and realized it was not as bad as I was thinking although there can be some complication it is something here to help save my life and if I dont do that then who will?

Well I am on my way! I have just started my journey for a new and healthier me. today july 7th 2004 I look forward to talking and meeting some of you here on OH for advice,friends and support. Please feel free to drop me a line as I go thru my journey.

thats my short story
Thanks for reading

July 8th, 2004

I had a sit down with my mother today and we talked about having the surgery. she was not for it, she knew people who have been thru it and never had anything to say good about the surgery she had also watched on the health channel some women talking about there journery and how it had no results for them and how they actually gained weight from there surgery so she was really not wanting to hear about me having the surgery AT ALL!

I had to stop her and explain to her the real deal about the surgery. point out that with any surgery there are all kinds of things that may go wrong but if we dont go thru them life may be a whole lot worst and in my case lisf isnt getting better.

I told her how my doctor told me my cholestoral was way to high, that if I didnt take the chance and have this surgery that I amy be dead any way! I explained to her about the BMI count and how I was concidered to be super obese for my weight and height and for my age it didnt look good at all. my mother is also well aware of my back problems since I had my slip n fall injury and how much life has changed for me. she started to say that well if you just eat right and exercise then this will not have to be an option. again I had to explain to her that I am at a stage that exercise is not an option right now because of my pain and in order to correct the pain I will have to lose weight first. I also explained to her that eating right is not the problem either because I barely eat anything anyway. I eat alot of veggies {frozen or fresh no cans} I limint my red meat intake I love fish and chicken baked not fried. I do not eat alot of things like candy. ho hos, potato chips etc. {unless there maybe a craving at that time of the month and its not even much I will eat} but because I can not do normal everyday things like walk and stand for long periods of time my motabolism is slow and not working due to not doing enough of anything.

After I showed her how much I have been researching this procedure and how much information I was able to give her about the ups n downs of the surgery. point out the benefite of having the surgery and what the end results maybe and how much I really felt this was for me she did a whole 360 degree turn around and said well sophia I love you so much and I wasnt aware that you had so much inside and you needed something like this so badly. I look at you and for the life of my I dont even see that you r over weight like that you dont look that big to me. I told her I dont look taht big to you because u see me like this all the time so u have adjusted to what I look like and have accepted it as my mother u love me unconditionally but I have not accepted this weight and I dont love myself any more as I use to. so I have to do something because I am damned if I do and I am damned if I dont so at least this was I have a better shot at a happier life :o).

She hugged me n said I am with you 100% and if this is what you want to do then I support your decision to be free.

I didnt expect that because I know my mom and once she is set in her way of thinking she is set but she really surprised me today for real and I am glad that she listend and understood what I wanted without fighting me on it .

So today I made my first phone call to The Bariatric Program of Lenox Hill Hospital-New York's Elite Upper East Side Institution

and ask to make an appointment with Marina Kurian unfortunityly she was unable to talk to me but I gave my information and was told she would call me back to set up the appointment so u know I will call her back tomorrow lol. just want to be sure to get this underway.

so that is my day today as my journey is not offically into a swing of something but I will try to come back and jot down some more thing tomorrow

Thanks for reading and listening to my story

July 9, 2004

Well I did it! I called Dr. Kurian office and made my consultation appointment for August the 11th. I have to get the referal from my doctor first and that wont be until 8/6 so I had to put the appoinmenet off until then. they were giving me a date for the 24th of july.

I feel good I am glad at least the first step was taken and I have made my decision to go forward. I hope that she will be the only doctor I need to check on because it scares me to know that I maybe be searching for doctors for months to come if she doesnt work out. so keep your fingers crossed

Ok thats all for now I will be back when I can to chat and post

Thanks for reading

July 9, 2004

I have found my angel!
Angelene Winn
http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/profile.phtml?N=W1085151194

I really appreciate it that she has volunteered her time to help me thru my journey now that she is on the losing side :o)

July 12, 2004

Well I have been chatting with a few of the OH family and I must say it is so refreshing to how everyone is so open and willing to talk about there journey, health issuses, progress since crossing over to the losing side. I have always been so self concious about talking about my weight to people I never told anyone how much I weighted or even thought about it. I see now that in order to over come my issuses I need to say it more often so I can move pass it in order for this to work out better for me. I welcome all advice and suggestion because I know in turn it will guild me to the right direction so everything can go over smoothly.
I Spoke to Angelene this weekend and she is Vagas { I wish I was there lol} Wasnt able to talk to her for to long my cable has been acting up all weekend so hopefully we will be able to talk this week after everything is fixed.

Well I hope everyone had a great weekend and I look forward to a great week.

Thanks for listening
Sophia

8/5/04

Well My pcp appointment is tomorrow where I will need to request my referral to and see Dr. Kurian. I am a little nervous about talking to the doctor about having the WLS, I guess I dont want her to turn me down or say anything negative about the surgery.
What do you say or do with a doctor who does not agree with type of procedure?

Well I will keep you posted.

8/17/04

Well havent been here in a few weeks so let me bring you up to speed.

I went to my doctors appointment on 8/6 to only find out that my PCP was on vacation and I was suppose to recieve notice{which u know I didnt} so I was really upet because mind you my consult was for the 11th. and the doctor wouldnt be back for 2 whole weeks. so i decided to talk with the administrater about what was going on. now she said she could give me the referral but it would have to be to a doctor in there direct network which was horrible because Dr. Kurian was in there network but not directly with the clinic I was in. I told her I didnt want another doctor cause I had only researched this doctor and she was definitly the one I wanted to go with. so she suggested that I call HIP and find out which center would be directly connected with Lenox Hill hospital and request a doctor with that center and they could give me the referral there. So u know I was on the ball and got everything changed and already saw my PCP the very next week 8/12.I rescheduled my surgeons appoint to 8/26. So when I went to the new center I was told well we cannot just refer you to the surgeon unless you do ur pyc eval and nutrion first. so of course my head almost fell off my shoulders cause I had already set up my appoint and didnt want to change it again. when I mentioned to the doctor that I already scheduled my appointment with the surgeon she actually said well maybe I will go ahead and give you the referal because she maybe able to help you with the pyc eval since I dont have anyone within the network to refer you to. I almost jumped out of my seat lmao. so everything is now ready for me to see the surgeon. I have my referral to the surgeon as well as one to the nutrionist so hopefully all will go well on my visit. I am very excited and nervous but before I know it the day will be here. just hoping to be able to schedule my surgery ASAP.

Keeping my fingers crossed

Dear GOD,

I want to thank You for what you have already done.

I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards, I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better, I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me,I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears, I am
thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves,I am
going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet,I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job, I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief,I am going to thank you right now

I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed.I am thanking you right now.

I am thanking you because I am alive.

I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties.

I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.

I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.

I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.
God is just so good, and he's good all the time.

Amen....

8/26

Hey,
just wanted to update everyone. I went to see Dr.Kurian this afternoon and I am so glad I decided to go with her. She was very funny and very direct about the procedures available and the good and bad side of of having the surgery. I had a wonderful day and look forward to getting started with my testing and to get to the losing side :o)

Enjoy your weekend and thanks for listening

9/28

Well it has been a while since I have been on here to write and update but that has been for a good reason. I have been running around all month long to appointments and I am exhausted!!
so far I have completed all of my required testing for my surgery next month and I found out yesterday I have been approved for surgery woohoo!!! I will be on the losing side in just 3 more weeks! I had my encodcopy yesterday and I am still feeling like a lump is in my throat everything was good the doctor said so I am glad about that. I have been talking to my angel alot and she has been a great support and outlet to talk with and funny as hell lol. we should be meeting soon and she is going to help me get everything together for after surgery so I will be on the right track and have everything together for surgery. I am a little nervoud but not as scared and nervous as I was before the closer it gets to the date I seem to be more relaxed and excited to know everything so far has gone over smoothly. My family members are making plans to come on down from VA to be here for my surgery, my mother is taking a week off so she can be here the first week to help me out around the house and with the kids. my friends here in NY are all preparing for the surgery so I am really feeling alot better about the surgery I seee everyone is starting to come around and asking more questions about the surgery so they can know what to expect after the surgery and know how to help me better.

well today is my day of rest and I am gonna take full advantage of it all lol. so I will be back later and post some more

Thanks for reading and I hope everyone is having a wonderful week

October 21, 2004

Well the day has finally come and I am ready for surgery!!!
Tomorrow is my big day and after all of the hoops and hurls I have jumped I am so ready to make this last jump for a better,happier and healthier life!!
I am not sure exactly what I am feeling but I do know that I am ready for this more then I was a month ago and even the month before that.

I say to all of my family and friends I love you all very much, I truely appreciate your support and understanding thru this time.I look forward to a long new life ahead and with your continued support I know I can reach my goal.

To my Web friends and family I love you all and wouldn't change a thing

See everyone on the losing side

Sophia

10/26

it has been 5 days since my surgery and I must say I am feeling good!!! I still have a little pain on my left side but the meds help me keep a movin lol.
I still cant believe I did it but I am not offically on the losing side woohoo!!!!!

Hope to stay focused and on the right track to keep on losing I want to hit my century mark at least in 4 - 5 mths

I want to thank my Angel she wa wonderful and although he had her own things going on he still made time to talk to me and make sure everything was alright. I definitly wannt to thank everyone who posted so many kind words in my guest book I love you all. every last one of you helped me pull thru this Ina read me what everyone wrote and I really appreciate everything.

now I am gonn post on the boards to thanks everyone and lay down I am feeling really drained today.

Talk to everyone real soon

Sophia