Life

Oct 13, 2011

Well I missed my last blog post - 10 month surgeriversary.  I was on a cruise which was wonderful!  I got to do things I never got to do before because of my weight.  I went horse back riding in the ocean, it was unbelievable.  I went on the zipline on the ship.  Both of these things were on my list of things I would do when I lost weight so it was a huge encouragement to me to do these things.  We also went down a river in a cave, that was amazing seeing that and knowing a year ago I could not have done that.  I was afraid I wouldn't fit in the wet suit they gave me but i fit fine and it said it was a size large.  I struggled a lot with the food on the ship and got sick almost nightly.  It was hard to see everything there and knowing I would get sick from it, they had awesome cookies!  Overall I did ok though and didn't eat nearly as much as I used to.  My weight loss has definitely stopped and it's all on my own fault.  I have stopped working out, I am eating crap at home and emotional eating.  I am eating more because I am bored or because I don't want to do the stuff I know I should , like clean around the house.  I went shopping this week to get some winter clothes since I don't have any and it's awesome that I am fitting into a size 16 and XL shirts.  I have got to remember this feeling and keep telling myself that feeling this way feels better than eating crap or even eating stuff I can have like fruits and protein dip and eating too much of it.  I've got to get to the bottom of this.  I am at 200.8.  I got down to 198 and never saw that number again.  I know what I need to do I just am struggling to do it.  

 

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