stoley
On the road to finding me.
Sep 03, 2009
I started this journey a little over 4 months ago. At that time I was so overweight that I never wanted to anything. My life consisted of going to work and going home. My social acitivites consisted of going out to eat. I couldn't walk up or down stairs without gasping for air and having pain in my knees and ankle (torn achilles). My back hurt so bad, I could barely stand up long enough to wash the dishes. The more I felt sorry for myself, the more I sought comfort in food. At the height of my downfall, I could consume a large pizza in one sitting. Sure, I felt miserable and stuffed afterward but, it didn't deter me. My blood pressure and cholesterol was out of control. Then my sugar levels started slowly creaping up until the doctor said they would have to put me on medicine if I didn't the number down . Then, my thryoid levels started going haywire and they put me on synthroid. At this time, I was feeling the worst about myself that I could ever remember feeling. I hated myself and the person I had become and had thought about the idea that being dead would be better than the looks and comments I had endured my entire life. My family was constantly on my back about losing weight and, 'how pretty I would be if I just lost weight'. I felt like and ugly cow and if my family thought that, it must be true.
Then, I went to a bariatric seminar and met the surgical coordinator, Sandy. In talking with her I realized that I was worth so much more than I gave myself credit for and with her help I started on my journey to finding me. While immediately after surgery I was ready to reverse it all due to acid reflux, etc. I waited it out and listed to what she said and today, I would never want to go backwards again. I've gotten myself under 300 lbs and am headed toward my next goals of 250. I know that one day I will reach my ultimate goal of 175. Today, I work out 3-4 times a week, I can sit on the floor and get back up again. I haven't been able to do that for about 5 years. I couldn't even walk to the mailbox without sweating and huffing and puffing, let alone pick myself up off the floor without help. I'm happier and healther...my blood pressue is normal and I'm off that medicine. My cholesterol has dropped almost in half and soon they will be cutting back that medicine and my thyroid medicine. My sugar levels are just fine and I've gone down 4 sizes in clothes. I don't have to shop in the men's department to find clothes that fit, I can shop on the woman's side now. I've got a long way to go but, I will get there, no matter how long it takes me. I will keep pushing forward.
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Then, I went to a bariatric seminar and met the surgical coordinator, Sandy. In talking with her I realized that I was worth so much more than I gave myself credit for and with her help I started on my journey to finding me. While immediately after surgery I was ready to reverse it all due to acid reflux, etc. I waited it out and listed to what she said and today, I would never want to go backwards again. I've gotten myself under 300 lbs and am headed toward my next goals of 250. I know that one day I will reach my ultimate goal of 175. Today, I work out 3-4 times a week, I can sit on the floor and get back up again. I haven't been able to do that for about 5 years. I couldn't even walk to the mailbox without sweating and huffing and puffing, let alone pick myself up off the floor without help. I'm happier and healther...my blood pressue is normal and I'm off that medicine. My cholesterol has dropped almost in half and soon they will be cutting back that medicine and my thyroid medicine. My sugar levels are just fine and I've gone down 4 sizes in clothes. I don't have to shop in the men's department to find clothes that fit, I can shop on the woman's side now. I've got a long way to go but, I will get there, no matter how long it takes me. I will keep pushing forward.
