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Well, I was doing so good. I was holding at 180 lbs (down from 360 or so at surgery time in Aug 08), then I hurt my back in September of 2010. I herniated a disk at my L4-L5 with a partially herniated disk at L3-L4. Pain, Pain, PAIN, PAIN! They started me on Nucynta 100 mg every 4 hours with Flexeril every 6-8 hours. When that stopped working for the pain, they started me on Percocet 10/325 2 tabs Q4 hrs, Flexeril 1tab Q6-8 hours. Well, that was in Sept....it's now May and I just got in to see a REAL pain specialist and he put me on MS Contin 60mg 1 tab Q8, Valium 10mg 1 tab Q8, Hydrocodone 10/325 for breakthru pain. I used to work as a CNA at at local hospital, so I burned tracks down the hallways everynight.....now.......NOTHING! I can't hardly stand, walk, sit. I am so depressed. So much so, it seems like it would be better without me here. I looked good at 180, size 10. Well, that is gone now too! I am back up to 235!!! I don't eat much more than I did before. MOST of my snacks are make with sugarfree(splenda) and low to no calories. I try to keep my fat calories and FAT period, LOW. What can I do? My depression is just getting deeper and deeper. I need some ideas to get my tool working my way again. Maybe that will give my something to help bring me out of my depression! HELP ME PLEASE! I am past desperate. I can't exercise much right now because of my back but when I can, you better believe I will be hitting it hot and heavy when I get it fixed!

Well, I am stuck! I have lost 105 pounds with 40 still to go to goal, and I won't budge. I started walking again. 2 miles a day at least 3 days a week, so maybe that will give me a push. I have found myself grazing lately, even though I am not hungry....I need to fight thru this. It is sooo hard to break old habits, and I thought it would be easy, but it's not. My day sucks today, mom and I are not speaking. Can it get any worse? Probably.

Merry Christmas!! I had a Wonderful holiday. I am so grateful for my kids and my husband. I don't know that I could go on without them. Well, I am down 76 pounds as of 12/23/2007. I am losing about 3 pounds a week on average. I know I could be losing more if I would just get on my bike everyday....I don't know why I don't do it. I will start ASAP.

Well, I haven't posted in a while. I am down a total of 55 Pounds now. 19 preop, and 36 postop. I guess that is good. I am 8 weeks out, so that is averaging about 4.5 pounds a week. I just pray it keeps up. I am feeling alot better than before, and I just LOVE the fact that I can throw my 22's away, and getting very close to tossing my 20's too! More later..... :)

Well, I have lost 14 pounds since surgery 8/29. I hope it keeps up. I really cannot wait to have some REAL meat, and not this pureed stuff! I have found that my favorite dish right now is fat free refried beans with olives and fat free cheddar cheese melted in it. It is very filling and high in protein. Anyway, I will post next week with my new weight loss amount!

9/7/07
I feel so much better. The last couple of days have been 100% better than the previous days. Nausea is gone (THANK THE LORD). Today I am having some pain on the inside if that makes sense. Hopefully it will subside. I am going stir crazy in this house.

8/30/07-9/1/07
So sick. Nauseated ALL the time. They really didn't want to discharge me from the hospital because of the nausea and muscle spasms. Muscle spasms that would contort my entire body accompanied with excruciating pain. I feel like I could die. My husband called the doctor and explained the situation and he said to increase my calories and start on protein shakes. Let's see, because right now would not be the time to ask me if this was worth it!

8/29/07
Here I go....Off to Baptist Health in Little Rock. 

8/28/07
Well, here I am. The night before surgery. SCARED to death. I am committed to this now. Money has been paid, and the decision has been made. But I am still scared. I hope it's all worth it.