sunshineinjaxs
THIS IS A BIG UPDATE! September 23 09
WOW where do I start? Ok lets see I had a lot of health problems still going through some. I ended up starting to go out. Found out there was a big world out there I had never knew because I was always to embarrassed to go outside or do anything. I still would do this all over again if I had to. Me and my husband started to have problems. I couldn't go anywhere without him and I think we both changed. He got abusive and I rebelled. My kids are now 14 and 8. On my youngest son B-Day when he turned 6 we bought him a little motorcycle. I got on it and rode up and down our street. BOY if I was still over weight I would not have done that before. (see pic) It was bitter sweet. Both of my kids were excited I wasn't sitting in a chair out of breath. I was up and playing and interacting with them. That was so nice and the way I felt was wow this is so nice to do. What a feeling that was! The look on my kids face. I will never forget that look or day. It was one of my most memorable days.
I ended up leaving my husband on our 10 year anniversary. He had turned to drugs and I didn't even know. I lost my home and car. I felt stuck. I needed to get out. He would come home and yell throw things and so on. I wasn't staying. I went through a 12 week period where I just went out and live life like I was 18 again. I wasn't ready to settle down didn't want a boyfriend. Just wanted to live the single life. Boy did God have another plan for me. One night I went out to have drinks with my friend. (didn't really want to go had to work next morning) (But after her begging me for hours I finally decided to go so she would leave me alone) I seen the most home some man I had ever seen. The blue eyes caught me. I told my friend I never do this but tonight I'm doing it I'm taking him home and then sending him on his way. (I had never done this) But knew if I didn't even talk to him I would never know what if..... Well I went to go up to him and a friend seen me and started to talk to me I told the friend I would be right back I'm trying to get to someone. I looked up and he was gone. Seen him across bar same thing happened again. So I said Never mind I'm going home. I walked out door to club (really it was a sports bar and grill) and guess who was walking in and we bumped right into each other. I asked him his name and he told me He ask me. I asked him if he wanted to go across the street and go to the club (It was a real dance club) He told me he rode with a friend and didn't have a ride home. I ask him where he live he told me I told him I live closer and he could leave with his friend or he could leave with me I wasn't driving that far to take him home. He chose to go with me. It was the best night I had had! That was a Tuesday he stayed with me till Thursday I took him home he called me as soon as I dropped him off. I told him I would call him. On Friday we had a party at my house on Monday he moved in. On that Thursday he asked me to marry him? WHAT? I said. I was in shock. One I told him I Love you is not to be said. Now he is asking me to marry him. I had to think about it.The more I thought and thought. I knew I had feel head over heals for this man. It is VERY true there is Love at first sight! It has now been 4 years and 3 weeks and we are still going strong and my boys love him! He is great. He is 10 years older than I and has no kids and was never going to get married again either. He had a 10 year marriage that killed him. She was caught cheating. He was hurt and would never allow that to happen to him again. We haven't gotten married yet. I think we both are scarred. WE live like we are. Just don't need, that paper that the government needs.
Me and My ex husband are still friends. We get along. He just wont hold a job. Things are great the way they are. We are better friends now than when married. He went and got help for the drugs so he is now clean! Thank you Lord!
Now the downs.... My boyfriend Rob he had a bad motorcycle one year after we were together and died on me 9 times. Not fun. He was in NICU for 3 months a nursing home for 1 month and in a hospital bed in our home for 2 months Before he was able to walk. He has gotten better. Has a couple of things still going on but nothing like it was. It was hard money wise. I started to drink and turned myself into a terrible drunk. I broke my ribs and left ankle from drinking. It finally woke me up and I had to realize I had given up on myself and I needed to figure out why? I did I just started to go back to church. I have 2 glasses of wine on Fridays. I figure out I don't have to be drunk to have a good time. The wine is my treat for along week and me not drinking a bottle of rum a day. It was BAD! I even got a DUI! Not fun. I had lost touch with me again. I was wondering man If I was still fat I would never have done this I would never had gone outside so I wouldn't have gotten myself in this mess. All things happen for a reason I think. Rob stayed with me through the hard times and loved me even more. He would pray for me and knew I had hit rock bottom but I had to figure that out on my own.No wonder I Love him SOOOOOO! He is my everything! I never though I could be loved so much! The feeling is the most wonderful thing in this world! I had married my ex when I was 17 years old. I didn't know any different. I think me and he were to young to have married (parents pushed it on us since I was pregnant) so as a adult now and have learned things I realize this is LOVE! HAPPINESS! And everything I had ever wished for.
I'm going to measure myself and add the measurements to here. Ill add more later. There just is so much. Everyone have a Blessed day!
Oh yeah I need to tell you this..........Rob took me to Universal Studios in Orlando for the first time a year and half ago. I had never been to a theme park. I was afraid of heights. I LOVED IT! So we know buy year tickets. I have the time of my life. I love riding the roller coasters boy what a thrill that is. When I was over weight I would NEVER had even gone! I had so much Fun and could fit in the seats!
