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6 weeks to go until my WLS date. I am nervous and excited at one time. Finally being able to lose weight and be normal again is overwhelming. I have explained this to friends/family in this way - I feel like I have have been suffering from a chronic illness, and now finally have treatment to heal me. The funny thing about that statement is, it is the truth. I have been suffering from this illness for years now. No matter what I did to heal myself, I have been unable. Now, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I am running to it.
I haven't always been overweight - but have been for too many years now. I started to gain weight at 16yo, and continued to this day at age 37. Of course I had dieted and lost weight, but had never reached a healthy, normal weight. I am a woman with good self esteem. Of course my weight was a personal issue for me, but b/c of all the wonderful people and things in my life, my weight was never an overbearing issue for me. I am happy and joyful. I am a lover of life. That being said, things have changed for me over the past few years. My weight has reached an all time high. My weight has interferred with my living, and doing the things I love. It has made me self concious for the first time in my life. It has made me finally look at what has happened to me. I don't want to get any heavier. I don't want to live my life as a fat person anymore. I want to look in the mirror and be happy with who I see. I want my outsides to look how I feel on the inside.
I wanted to begin writing now, to chronicle whatI am feeling throughout this journey I am on. It's hard for those not going through this, to understand. This website has been a gift for me. I am feeling positive, and hopeful for a wonderful future. Let the games begin....
