Tamara A.
My heart felt journery !!!
Jan 09, 2007
6/ 1/ 07 - Hey my Obesity famiy. I have some news! I'AM APPROVED & MY DATE IS June 5, 2007. I new lease on life I thank god for allowing me to get up the courage to do this. He has helped me grow in so many ways that i can't even explain. This a long fight but i have won the battle.
I have some special angels in my life that has helped me through this. Yolanda was sent to me for a reason. She had helped me find my surgeon she as been my support system not just through my journey but in my personal life as well. I thank god for her everyday. I love so much yolanda. Thank you for opening my eyes. And if it weren't for her i would never known about obesity. And met my 2 Angels Michelle and velda.
I Remember when i first spoke to Michelle and what had tickled me was her laugh. And what she doesn't realize is that her laugh makes smile and a smile is worth alot when you cry most of the time. And god has blessed her to move forward with her life ith her surgery and it as been sucess for her. Thank you for being there for me. All question and concerns. I love you Michelle.
Velda girl you know that we have been throught it together. The laughs, cries. You have done so much for me. For the past few months that i can think of. Distances doesn't mean anything when you have a phone and love. I have watched you go through alot of hell!!. But prayed to god to let whatever was holding you to let go. Let her live her life happy and healthy and so far i'am happy for you. I thank god for you I love you Vel. Thank you for beng there for me i so manys ways than one.
Thank you for all of my comments and support. I will posting again before i go in. Love you guys. Later for now!
CRUNCH TIME!
6/ 2 / 07- Hey everyone today has been a happy day for me. I'am so forward to my surgery, To tell you guys the truth i didn't even get a chance get be scared. I handed in my paper work on May 31,2007 and got the date the same day. And got approved June 1, 2007 that was nobody but god!
I just want to come home safe and sound. To be with my babies and my love ones. I'am so excited and axnious. But we still have 2 more days. LOL. I will post tomorrow. Love you guys.
Emotional
6/3/07- This morning i woke up in good and happy spirits. But when i realized that i have to sit down and explain to my 7 & 8 old babies that mommy has to go in for surgery. Which i had already told them. But i have to let them no matter what mommy loves them. And she will always love them.
It s very hard when kids have one parent that they are use to caring for them,I all the time i think god for my mom! Because there's nothing like a mother's love ( crying). Because she had taught me. In life people come and go. But god will always be there. And a believe that. My autie was god fearing woman. And she always said to me. To believe and love god you don't have to praise him in church home. You can praise anywhere, Bathroom, bedroom, kitchen. And i take that and use it.
Please Yall pray for me! Because i need it.
Love you guys.
Thank you
6/5/07 - As you can see the journey is about to began. I got my call yesterday at 3:00pm. Saying to be at the hospital at 6:15am. That they want me in by 7:30am. So here it is 1:11am and haven't went to bed yet. I guess i'am anxious and a little bit overwhelmed at the same time. Because i have gotten alot of i love yous today. And plus that shows me that i'am loved and that is a beauitful thing.
I thank everyone once again for being supportive and loving torwards me through my half of journey.LOL We have to spread or love and knowledge. Because you never know what a message or a hello can do for a person. Love you guys. Pray for me and famiy as well to help them through. Because this a change for me as well as for them too.
LOVE YOU GUYS! I WILL POST WHEN I'AM BETTER! LOVE YA!
I'AM HOME!
6/9/07- Hey my family! I'am home!!. The surgey was a sucess. Thank you god! So far i haven't had any problems as of yet! don't want any either. Right now i have alot of gas and this stupid
G-tube. But it will be out on thursday anyway. I thank velda for her support and her love! The flowers are doing great!! LOL. Yolanda i thank you for everything when you came to see me. That made me feel so good. Michelle thank you for the love and the support you have given me.
I thank god that i'am doing well and i'am looking forward to losin this weight and feeling like a million bucks. Love you all thanks for the comments amd messages. I will post tomorrow. Bye for now.
6/11/07- Hey family. I wanted to give you guys an update! I went to the hospital yesterday because the tube was leaking and i was a little concern. But they had explain that there was a blood clot in the tube and he pulled it the clot out. But guess what the tube is still leaking. Because the clot is inside and they can't take it out.
On thursday they are suppose to be removing it!. Thank god!!!!! I can't wait to get over this liquid diet. I want to see how food take to my new pouch. LOL. Well i will be posting again on thursday once i get the news. Later for now!!!
6/14/07- Hey family!!! I hope everything is good with you guys. Well today i went to the sugeron assitant today. She took out this awful jptube. Thank god that was causing me more pain then the surgery! But enough of that. I lost 15 pounds Yall HOLLA!!!!!!!!!!! I'am so happy i thank god for my blessing everyday.
I'am so thankful fo this surgery and not having any problems yet. But i don't have to see them again until july 12. Right now i'am on a full liqiud diet now. And then next week thrusday i can have blended foods. If you guys have any suggestions. Please let me know. We'll i guess i will be going for know. But i will be posting some pictures soon so watch out!!! LOL. LOVE YOU!
7/ 9 / 07 - Hey my family. I know it has been a while. I just had been dealing with some peronal issues. But i'am back i can't wait until thursday so they can start me on a new diet. Because eating the same thing gets a little nerve recking! And hoping by then i would have lost some pounds. Because i learn you can weight yourself to much.
Because you look forward for to much. But i have learned to be greatful. Thanks to velda and Michelle. For getting in my butt about things and we all need that push. I love you guys. And i will update about my appointment on thursday! Be healthy and safe!
9/ 3 / 07 - Hey yall, I know i have been gone for a while and i'am back.!!!!
Everything has been going well with me. The last time i weighed in I was 318. 
That has been about 3 weeks ago. I know that has been a long time. But i just have a fear of the scale. I guess that it will go away. And let me share that i haven't be able to see it but my clothes tell a different story. Before surgery i was fitting a size 26 pants. And know i'am able to wear a 22 now. And there getting baggy. My 22/24 shirts are falling off.
And i'am happy. That might not seem alot to some people. But it means alot to me. I have more enegry, self - esteem. I thank god everyday for my surgery. It has changed my life . But i do realize that i still have along way to go. But i'am Postive and i have angels that are for me 100%. I love you guys. And i know that we are in this together. By later this week i will be able to give you guys another and some 3 month pics. Until then stay healthy and god bless.
I"AM BACK!!!!
October 8, 2007
Sorry about my lack of not posting. But my computer is down. But I have some new numbers for you! I'am now 292.4. I'am in a size 18/20 pants now!!! I tried on a size 18 dress. Which i was in shock. But most of all i went down 4 sizes in my bra and a cup. Thank you god! I have been longing to get out of the 3's for so long. I still have a way to go. But i will be alright. I'am so grateful for what i had accomplished. I had came along way. I will be posting soon. And with some picture's LOL. Love you guys.! Stay strong and healthy!!!
November 20, 2007
Hey yall, It has been a mintue. I know . But i'am back. Since i last posted i have been to virgina to see Michelle. And boy did i have a ball. I wish i could have stayed longer but i had to get back to normal life. Michelle and her family are exellent loving people. The whole time i was there i felt like a part of the family. It has been a blessing to know Michelle and Velda,Yolanda because they are wonderful. Words can't describe how i feel about them they have become a big part of my life. I love you guys from the bottom of my heart.
We will remain sister's in god name. Going to church with Michelle that sunday has done alot for me. Because i have already taken god as my personal savoir. But sometimes you have to go back to church and see and feel the word. And i had enjoyed it be cause everyone at her church was so warm and real.
Know the drum role.... LOL I'am 275.3. healthy and thankful. Sometimes it is hard to stay on track. But i look back 1 year ago. And i shake my head know not me!!! I'am too blessed happy and sexy for that mess. Love yall. I will be posting soon.
