terrilee819
April 2007
Apr 16, 2007
It has been forever since I have posted here. NOT GOOD... Life has been very complicated since Thanksgiving. Started with a weekend away to celebrate the holidays out of state. We get home, hubby goes to Dr. and is checked into the hospital for 1 week... He gets his new job... We go thru appt after appt for him and then miraculously he is doing much better. My Mom is scheduled to have her hip replaced. She has surgery on March 29th and is still in the hopital now with so much chaos that it isn't even imaginable. She will be going to rehab therapy we hope sometime this week and then home soon there after.
I will make a point though of filling in some blanks this week.
Soon...
November 2006
Nov 30, 2006
November 2, 2006
Well, today is the beginning of my "Back to Basics" reality. Since a couple of weeks before the wedding til yesterday I had been being wayyyyy too lax with everything food/wls related. I kept feeling like I was doing it all right but yesterday it came slammingly clear that I was far from "all right" of course that conclusion came to me as I reached for a package of peanut butter and crackers ! I do need to qualify... it was my third package of peanut butter and crackers that I had quickly consumed with my 48 ounces of water ! ( Yeah, at least I had the water part right but now come on...)
I started to look back on what lovely new habits I had developed over the past 6 weeks... Hmmmm what happened to that idea of no liquids 30 minutes before or after food ? What about eating meals and not just sitting there all day long grazing... (I have to be totally honest, I had no idea how easy it was for some old habits to rear their so damn ugly heads !) Excercise ?? Pardon the heck out of me... You want me to do what ?!
So this morning I have been back to basics... I had a protein breakfast, 32 oz water...a protein snack of egg salad. Lunch is going to be a grilled chicken salad with some great feta cheese. I have been having trouble in the afternoon just eating like a drunken sailor so I am going to have a protein drink before I leave for home. Dinner will be whatever I come across but, a reasonable portion and then after a sugar free ice pop snack nothing more to eat til tomorrow am.
I have to get back on the weight loss journey. Truth be told if I never lost another pound, I would be happy. But I really would like to try to drop another 25 lbs and get down to somewhere around 150. Half of day one on the "Back to Basics" plan is almost over with. I haven't threatened anyone yet, so I think I may just make it !
September 2006
Sep 30, 2006
Today is a sad day... 5 years since the terrible explosions in NYC...
Less than a month til the wedding... Things are going well...
September 25th 2006
Weight loss has not been going well lately. But I am (for the most part) ok with that. The stress of the wedding and all the planning I think has really finally hit home ! I say that less than 2 weeks out...
Guess I should be happy that it really didn't kick in til now. Tonite is my final dress fitting. I am soooo darn nervous !! Tonite will be the first time I have had my dress on that I will be able to zip it and really honestly see it all... WOW... So happy, excited and nervous all at once. I think I wanna go home, take a nap and try to relax til my appt !
August 2006
Aug 30, 2006
Things have been going pretty well. I just had my 6 month check up and my lab tests came back good, cept I need more protein !! So going to make the effort to add 10 grams a day and that should get me to that minimum level.
Wedding plans are going well. 6 weeks and 1 day ! We have most of the major things done and now just have to get the little but frustrating things done. We are catering it ourselves so that adds alot more work but since we have picky tastes it works out to be worth the effort and money savings !
I haven't been doing any great things though when it comes to weight loss ! But when I realized that I now weight approx 80 lbs less than I did at the beginning of the journey I am ready to stall and "play catch up" if I have to for a couple of weeks. I have discovered that I can eat almost anything but that the volume still has MAJOR impact on me. I do eat my protein first but have also splurged on a little bit of dessert every once in awhile. I know that the reason that I got "fat" in the first place was because I just didn't stop when I was full but I do that now... I may not be the perfect WLS patient but I am trying very very hard to always be thinking of what is going into my mouth and the impact it will have on me. I have a hard time if I allow myself to get too hungry and then eat too fast but, knock on wood, it has been quite a while since I have been sick so...
Hair loss is killing me, specially so close to the wedding !! It just down right sucks ! I am using minoxidil and have increased my biotin so I do have some wisps that are coming back in.
It's funny but it just occurred to me that the majority of my fiancee's family haven't seen me since surgery. So when you add the wedding dress and new body that will be pretty weird ! I wish that I hadn't lost so much of my chest. Hmmmm how funny I thought it was when someone described their chest as gym socks with tennis balls... Believe me, it wasn't that funny though when I realized that my chest now can be described in that way also !
Time to get back to wedding work !
July 2006
Jul 30, 2006
July 18th
Well it has been a while since I have posted. Things are going well but have been pretty busy.
We have officially set our wedding date as October 7th. Went this past weekend to look at wedding gowns and was SO VERY DISAPPOINTED when I couldn't find one. Made some phone calls yesterday and found a shop that is about 5 miles from the house. Went in and found the most amazingly wonderful perfect gown ! I was crying and acting like a "ninny nut" (as my mom would say !) It does cost a bit more than what I wanted to spend but it is the perfect dress. So it will be worth it.
I was stuck on a "stall" but seem to have broken it the last few days so am feeling better about that. Also have been checking my blood sugar and it has been around 120 so that is amazing !!
Haven't been on the scale in a while so when I get back on I will have to update my ticker !
Things are good... Life is wonderful, I am happy and healthy. Oh, did I mention in love too ?!
June 2006
Jun 30, 2006
June 13th 2006
It has been a while since I have posted. I guess that the combination of good weather and housework has kept me away.
My last post talked about speaking with my surgeon regarding setting a goal weight. When I brought the topic up they said "We will let you know when you get TOO thin!" Me ?? Get tooooo thin ? I did a double take, looked around the room to see if they were talking to someone else to see that I was the only person in the room ! So since I don't have an "official" goal weight I have re-thought that 135 lbs and think that I am going to look at 145. When ( and if) I get there, if I think I would better a bit thinner then the 135 maybe an option. Right now I just get such satisfaction when I can see the scale make the downward trek ! The week before last I didn't lost anything but made it all better by losing 4 lbs this past week so... YYYEEEEEHA !
I was doing great getting all my protein in til I realized that I ran out of my "test tube protein:-( " I have already ordered some more and am hoping that I can find some high protein foods to help out til my order gets here. I have been doing great though with gettimg my liquids (at least 75 oz a day with even a couple of 100's in there!) I am going to keep at 75 oz til I do better getting it throughout the day. Right now my big goal is to get 40 oz before I get to work which doesn't have me getting in alot through the rest of the day. I have started though always having a glass or bottle of something in my hand or nearby when it has been more than half an hour before or after eating.
I have also made the committment to myself that I am going to start testing my blood sugar at least once a week. I did really well for the first 6 weeks I was home but haven't been too consistent with it since. I want to be sure that I know what kind of impact that carbs have on me post op. I WILL NOT GO BACK TO HAVING TO SHOOT UP ! If it means cutting back on carbs again that is what I am willing to do.
Kitty had her surgery and is home !! Congrats again Kitty... So proud of you and happy that you are on the loser's bench. Being a loser has never felt so good ! ( I still smile everytime I think about how good losing really feels !)
Better get back to work. The idea of doing more laundry just has me more excited that I can put into words... (Had to stop from choking on that comment !)
June 29th
Things here are going ok. I had a major dilemma though ! I ran out of protein liquid and didn't order it fast enough. Let me tell you, I can tell the difference in so many different ways when I go for a couple of days without enough protein ! But as I type I have a great bottle of new Nectar Sweet Cherry just sitting here waiting to be sipped at !
I have been going thru some strange stuff... Seems like I don't recognize myself anymore ! I haven't weighed this little since I was a kid in Jr High. Back then I didn't have any extra skin and never really paid attention to what I looked like. Now everytime I look in the mirror I do a doubletake ! It is really hard to explain but it is almost uncomfortable... There have been so many times that I tried to lose weight and never was able to, that I think that I just gave up the idea of ever getting to a healthy weight. Even though I knew that with the surgery it was possible, I am still feeling akward ! With time I guess I will start to "know me" again... I hope...
May 2006
May 30, 2006
May 2, 2006
Yesterday was my weekly weigh in day. 200.6 !! Less than one pound away from onederland ! So amazing. Never really thought I would get there. It is weird in some ways I picked the goal of 135 lbs but just never really thought that I could get there. I guess that all those years of failed diets made me think I would never be able to lose all this weight and keep it off. Well, I have quite a way to go to get to 135 but onderland has been my mini goal since I had the surgery, and I am almost there !
May 14th, 2006- Welcome to Onederland !
This is my post on the Feb 2006 group forum.
For all of you on the East Coast who were awakened this AM at around 645 I do truely apologize ! I HAVE ARRIVED !!
For the past week I have been getting on the scale to see anything between 198 and 199.6. But when I stepped on the scale again within seconds I was at 200.6-201.2. I knew that to accept passage to ONEDERLAND I had to stay under 199.9 for all of day ! So... But after deciding that I was just going to wait til tomorrow to do my normal Monday morning weigh in I thought long and hard and CHANGED MY MIND !
Jumped (ok stepped gingerly) onto the scale to see.... DRUM ROLL... 196... Holy cow Batman ! My head was a spinnin ! Then got on again and... and... and... 198, 198, 198 (ok I hold little faith in this scale sometimes !) THIS DAMN WOMAN HAS ARRIVED !!!!
I woke up my fiancee with squeals of delight (he didn't have a dang clue til he realized that I had just gotten off the scale !) "Onederland finally ?"
"Yup baby ! Onederland !!"
I am so happy, proud of myself and just down right smiling ! I will never forget how good this made me feel and can't wait to have all of you "get your passage" too !
Finally, another goal to check off my list !! YYYYYEEEEEha !
May 22nd 2006
Today was weigh- in day... 193.4 !! I stepped on the scale 3 times and got the same weight all three times ! (I really do hate that scale!)
Been kinda hectic but I started a new excercise routine this weekend. It is called BodyFlex. At first I thought "OHHH NO, what a waste of money and time this is" but after my first couple of workouts, I think I will really enjoy it. The nice thing is that I can do it any time of the day, it is a quiet workout and no bouncing around on already bad knees ! So I am hopefull that I will enjoy it and want to keep it up. I also ordered a gazillion DVD's from Netflix to check out, hoping that I will be able to find something else that I will enjoy so I can alternate my workouts.
I ordered some new protein stuff so I am hoping that I will be finding some new options. I have been doing alot better about getting up to my current goal of 65 grams a day. Now I just have to fight to get it 100 % of the time ! Also been doing great with my liquids. Discovered that good ole Lipton sugar-free Iced Tea mixed with some Peach Raspberry Crystal Light is really addictive. I never really thought about doing that but was reading about alot of people who mix their protein tea with Crystal light and it was good so thought that regular tea mixed in would be just as good. And it was !!
Have my 3 month follow up this week with my surgeon. Going to talk to him about my weight goals. As of right now, we haven't established anything. At first I was thinking about 135 but am not sure how realistic that may be for someone who has been heavy all their life, prior to plastics. Hoping that I may not need to get any additional surgery. (That whole thought is what got me motivated to find a good toning work out so... ) So who knows, 135 ?? 150 ?? Heck I haven't weighed that little since I was what 8-9 ?? I think having always been heavy that I didn't pay attention to my weight except one time when I was in high school. We had to get on the scale to get weighed for PE and I kept thinking how horrible it was going to be but at least I didn't weigh 200 lbs. I would be just a tad under but not WEIGH 200 LBS AND BE IN HIGH SCHOOL. Well to my dismay the scale read 201.1. I wanted to cry... Even then all the diets didn't work. All the days of not eating didn't work. All the hours of walking and sweating my butt off didn't work for more than a week.
Dr P, Thank you for the most amazing tool that I think I have ever been lucky enough to get. Thank you for changing my life and making me someone who I never ever thought I could be.
April 2006
Apr 30, 2006
Today was the magic scale day. I have discovered that I can eat cheese ! (YEEEEHAA) I think I was just maybe either eating too much or eating too fast and that was causing me some "upheaval" problems. Been trying to increase my protein and liquids and so far so good...
April 12th, 2006
Hey I just realized that I am now only "obese" and no longer "extremely obese !!" Hey any little change is a great one !
Huuuuurrrray I am obese !!! lol...
April 20th, 2006
Well it is a wonderful day ! The sun is shining and it is supposed to be warm !! I have been having better luck with getting my protein numbers up where they are supposed to be. This week my goal was to consistently maintain 50 grams a day. So far yesterday was the only day where I was having a hard time and then I only got up to 48. I know that I will have to get more protein but figured that I would work on getting my way up to 70 by adding at least 5 more grams each week. I have also been doing alot better with my "liquids." I have been using Fitday to track stuff and that has make it alot easier to know whether I am on track or not.
I did try out Curves- hmmmm well... I guess that maybe it was just me but I didn't really enjoy it. I know that I did get a little bit of a work out but I enjoy the weights and seeing that progression as I con't to work out. Thinking about the local Y but right now I may just work out at home. I know me, know that when it gets warm I am not gonna want to do anything more than spend my time after work in the backyard pool ! I have some dvd's and tapes at home I can do, plus keep up my walking and then adding swimming should be a great workout so...
I am getting closer to "onedeland" everyday and that is a great feeling. I am not jumping on the scale everyday though cuz I know that it makes me way too stressed.
I am so thankful for this website and all the people I have encountered since the first time I signed on. Everyone is wonderful, they share the good, bad and the ugly and are always there for support and kudos when earned. Thanks everyone !
If anyone is ever reading this profile and you need to talk about anything, feel free to drop me an email. I am not an expert in WLS but do enjoy making new friends, sharing lessons and experiences.
April 24th, 2006
March 2006
Mar 30, 2006
This has been my first week back at work since the surgery. The first few days were a bit rough but yesterday and today went pretty well. I had a follow up appt. on Wed. w/Dr P. Everything looks good. Incisions healing as they should be. Still having a rough time getting all my water but I am doing my very best to get more in everyday !
I have discovered or been reminded how much I love CHILI ! Heck even the canned stuff they have now is pretty good. It makes a great lunch at work.
A busy weekend is planned for this weekend so I probably won't get much time to read or post this weekend but next week I will get back to posting more often. Almost actually looking forward to raking the lawn this weekend ! ( It is supposed to get up into the 50's !!)
March 15th, 2006
Seems like things have quietly settled back down. I am still working on trying to get in all my water and protein but everyday I get a little bit closer to my goal.
I had been a bit frustrated cuz the darn ole scale has not really been that friendly lately but after reading a million posts it seems like most WLS patients are having "stalls" around 3-4 weeks so I am not going to freak out.
Going tomorrow to my first chiropractor appointment since my surgery. Kinda nervous about all the snapping and crackling but I realllllly need an adjustment so hoping that it will help to relieve alot of the stress in my shoulders and back.
I was reading some of the posts this AM- One was asking about "If you knew then what you know now, would you... " I know that it has been less than a month but I can't begin to explain how much better I already feel. There was one night in the hospital when I had terrible gas that I was ready to run out in front of a truck but would I do it again ? In a heart beat !
-Sliding into a smaller sized pair of jeans this weekend had me crying.
-Coming home from work and being able to stay awake is a wonderful thing.
-Hell I had to go out and buy a belt for the first time in my life and that was to keep my jeans up and not so I could be fashionable.
I am sure that there will be more reasons as my whole journey continues but I am thankful for every one of them no matter how silly or simple they may be.
March 20th, 2006
Today is my one month anniversary ! I still have to get used to the idea that I actually have energy to do things. Things have been a bit hectic today but I still feel good, and more than a month ago I would have been aggravated and ready to curse someone out after a day like today ! So improvements are definetly a good thing !
March 22, 2006
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Feb 2006
Feb 27, 2006
Feb 2, 2006
Well it certainly has been a wild couple of days ! Yesterday was my appointment to get weighed and then have my paperwork submitted. The first thing that Linda told me was "Oh I already submitted all your paperwork. We should know pretty soon." I asked her what she said thinking maybe I had mis understood what she said and she repeated it. I was so excited and scared at the same time it was silly. I was able to lose some weight since my last visit to the office but to be honest I really don't remember exactly how much. I had so much on my mind to ask about but at least I lost and I think it was around 4.5 pounds but not important right now !
So all afternoon I waited everytime the phone rang for it to be either the insurance company or Linda. This morning I thought about calling the insurance company since I didn't wanna pester Dr. P's office but before I got the chance to call them they called me.
They called my cell phone and all I really got was a strange "cellified" hello and the line went dead. I had the number to call back though (thanks for caller ID !) so I called right back- got put on hold a couple of times & he said, "You have been submitted for approval for gastric bypass surgery." Okokok that I knew ! "It has been approved." "WHAT DID YOU SAY ?" "It has been approved." I thanked him a million times over thru the tears !
I told my fiancee and best friend as soon as I could stop crying long enough to talk. I still don't think that it has caught up with me but I just know that I am SO VERY HAPPY !
I am scheduled for the 20th of Feb with my pre-op stuff to be done 2/13. It will be a liquid kind of Valentine's Day but I am ready for the new beginning.
Honey, I know that you read this from time to time- I love you, thank you for all of your support and for being there everyday, the good, bad and ugly ones. It means the world to me.
Feb 5, 2006
Yesterday I spent some time with my family filling them in on the surgery, the process and the anticipated results. Both my folks are diabetic, have hypertension and high cholesteral. I think that the idea that I may not have to go thru everything that they have really made them see the surgery as a positive thing right away. They are nervous but ready to see me at a more healthy stage in my life. At first my dad commented about how I had been able to lose weight before so maybe this was a bit extreme but when we talked about the meds, the impact they have on your body and how un-healthy the whole "yo yo thing" is he was able to see that right now the surgery is the only way to get on the road to recovery.
I have been trying to get things organized a little bit more around the house and bought my vitamins yesterday. Right now even the little steps feel great !
February 11, 2006 Otherwise known as DAY TWO ON LIQUIDS!
Day one went pretty well aside from the horrible tasting protein stuff ! But I figure it is a small price to pay when I look at the eventual results.
I have been trying to come up with a list of things that I just "have to" get done before next weekend... Hmmmm first thing on the list- Make the list ! Ohhhh yeah and laundry. It seems to just mulitply in unbelieving proportions ! (Yeah I do hate laundry !) I've got my jello in the fridge and the freezer has some sugar free ice pops so I am doing ok so far...
More later on-
February 13, 2006
Ok so day Three on liquids did not go as well as days one and two. I proceeded to breakdown in tears... Then I discovered a can of cream of brocolli soup and almost all was right in the world again. Tonite (Night FOUR!) I took advantage of the idea of a snack and had some sugar free hot chocolate. I whipped it in the blender before I popped it in the microwave and wow..... it was wonderful.
Today was also my pre-op testing. That was quick and for the most part painless.
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February 16, 2006
Well I am really happy to announce that today is the last day of my liquid diet. Sadly though I must also announce that tomorrow is the first day of my 3 day CLEAR liquid diet ! 10 days on just liquids...And not even really good liquids !!! It could be worse...
I am going to try to have a reasonably peaceful weekend this weekend so tonite starts the chaos of getting the house clean and all that darn laundry done ! I do have errands to run this weekend though so that will be a huge help as far as staying away from any "real food!" Last Sunday when we got that snow boredom started to settle in and for the first time I realized how much I wanted to just eat it away. Little did I know that during the whole process I was going to learn soooo much about myself !
Looking forward to getting my stuff together for Monday but I don't want to do it too early !
I want to thank everyone who has sent good wishes thru the site. It means alot to know that there are people out there who have gone thru or will be going thru this whole thing and who I can rely on when I need some help. THANK YOU THANK YOU !
Hon- You mean the world to me. Thank you for all you do for me and for always being honest even when you are worried. I love you !
February 19, 2006
12 hours til we head out for my surgery.The ten day liquid thing... Hmmm well since I know that I will be doing the same thing after surgery I am not even going to really comment about it cept to say that it sucks ! Just starting to get packed and get ready to settle in for the night.
Everyone else is really nervous and me, I am just really happy that my turn has come and ready to start a new chapter. Too much to get done so I had better get going...
See ya on the losing side !
Suday February 26, 2006
I just wanted to update my status to "POST OP!" Kinda tired out tonite but I will do an update sometime tomorrow. Follow up appt with Dr.P is Tuesday so we will see how things are going ! Bed time...
February 27th, 2006
One week ago I became a "LOSER!" Here goes the quick summary of the past week...
2/20
715 am - Arrived in Hudson- Ready for my surgery. Not nervous or worried, just really ready to get on with the whole process.
8 am- Watching TV, waiting for them to come get me down to the emergency room.
930am- Kissed my fiancee and went off to the operating room.
115 pm- Remember being in the recovery room- Feeling parched and ready for a gallon of water. Those darn little sponges... I wanted to cry. Had my honey at my side and remember telling anyone who would ask that I had been run over by a truck.
315 pm- In my room- family was in to visit and I was ready to get some serious naps.
2/21
Went down for the dye test. Got to see that funky stuff go down my throat and into my new pouch, and then down into my intestines. (That was cool !) Back to my room with some other blue stuff for the last leak test- All was well... They pulled the cathader out and I was free to wander the halls.
I walked around, but not as much as I really would have liked to. I was for the most part pretty exhausted and not able to really stay awake for much more than an hour at a time.
2/22
Got some more sleep, did some more walking and then it all happened. GAS... I know what everyone said about having to walk it away but it was almost frightening. Still had the tape across my belly with the incisions and drain so as the evening progressed the tape got tighter. It was horrible. No matter how much I walked I couldn't get it to move in either direction. Almost in tears when the nurse suggested to drink as much warm decaf tea as I could possibly hold. That did it ! I sipped and sipped and sipped some more. Finally that warm tea got things to get moving and I was a very happy woman !
2/23
7am as promised Dr. P was in my room, ready to get rid of my drain, the tape and central IV line. I was happy to have the drain gone. It was hard to believe but somewhere that drain was hitting a nerve that was causing me terrible pain in my shoulder. As Dr. P pulled out the drain the pain washed away. I was worried about the drain coming out but aside from the shoulder pain relief I didn't feel a thing !
930 am I was home and ready for a good nap in my own bed !
2/24
SHOWER DAY ! It was wonderful. Felt great to get to clean up and relax in the hot water.
2/25-2/26
Did some minor shopping. Was really cold out so I took advantage to getting to a couple of stores to get some excercise. A couple of times I was thankful to hang onto the shopping cart but for the most part getting out was wonderful.
Tomorrow is my follow up with Dr. P- assuming that he will take out my staples. As of right now I am at Stage 2- Having regular liquids. Discovered in the hospital that I can stomach jello (Can't tell you how many batches I made at home only to throw away cuz I just couldn't stand it !) The hardest thing right now is my protein. I don't like frothy shake stuff and before the surgery the only way I was able to get down protein drink was to chug it down ice cold. Well let me tell ya, this little pouch will not tolerate anything being chugged or liquids too icy cold. Going to test out some samples and maybe I will find something to help me get the protein I need.
Time for dinner- Hmmmm cream of something soup and some more water !
I usually am pretty quiet when it comes to referring something to anyone but I am so happy that I chose Dr. Pearlstein to be my surgeon. He answered EVERY question that my fiancee and I had and even some that we didn't. He was thorough and most importantly very down to earth. There are not many people who I would have so confidently felt comfortable with having as my surgeon. Linda, his surgical assistant is the best. She is up-beat and was always available whenever I had a question. The ladies in Dr. P's office were always very friendly, helpful and professional. A million thanks to all of you !
That cream soup is calling my name !
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