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 I am an emotional wreck.  Where did this suddenly come from?  OMGosh, I can't stop crying.  Is this normal?  I could barely get up this morning and once I did this wave of sadness and confusion literally overwhelmed me.  Am I doing the right thing?   

I am now in the third month of the the required 3 month medically supervised weight loss program.  My goodness!  the time did fly by.  I meet with the nutritionist on Thursday and then we can submit for the insurance approval.   I sent an email to my primary doc for the letter he has to re-write but have not heard from him yet.  I hope he is not on vacation..... I need to get this moving before I back out of it.

I was going to meet a friend after work and go walking.  She had to work late so she was unable to walk with me.  I was so disappointed :-(  A decision had to be made.  Just go home or keep my committment to walking two miles per day.  I decided to just go for it and glad I did.  Being able to see Mt. Rainier surrounded by Lake Washington and then see the sun setting on downtown Seattle was good for my soul and the walk was good for my  soles.   From this walk I have a new goal.  to get my miles down to 15 minutes.  I am just over 20 minutes and that is too slow.

Wow.  Someone told me they noticed I was slimming down.  I was like, really?!  I guess maybe this is working.  To celebrate I went for a walk after work.  I look forward to when I can see a difference.

So what is going on with me?  I am tired of chewing 100 times per bite, I have lost some weight with the pre-op diet but feel like I am not sucessful.... I have no energy and just want to throw in the towel.  Is this normal to feel like this?  I am not sure what to do with these crazy emotions..... Yikes!

It turns out my insurance will not cover the lapband and I am okay with that.  I have been attending a wonderful support group for Lapband folks and feel much more comfortable about it.  I am in month two of my medically supervised weight loss program and have one more month to go.  At that point I will submit to the insurance company and see what or how much they will cover.

I was a little upset about the three month diet but have since changed my mind.  This time has taught me to think about food in a new way and to practice what will be my new reality.  I am learning to read labels and learning to be satisfied with what I need instead of what I want.  I have made a few mistakes but only when I did not have a plan.

A co-worker is going to get this surgery as well so I will have a support team at work.  Life is good.

After I finally decide that WLS is the best thing for? me to do and I had made up my mind to have the Lap Band, I have begun to have second thoughts and now think the Sleeve would be a better choice for me in the long run.  My Dr. told me that my insurance does not currently cover the sleeve procedures which will then delay the whole process.  Also just finding out today I have a hernea that has to be fixed .  Is the Lap Band the best choice for a hernea?  Would love to hear your thoughts.