tmeko
Starting over
Aug 06, 2011
I started this weight loss journey on Feburary 2 2005. I had lap band surgery, I could have chosen gastric bypass at the time I was in school and on acedemic suspension and couldnt miss anymore days. So I chose the lap band. It was fine at first but I never had any support family wise or groups. I continued to eat like I always did because I had still had the mentality that I could eat normally. I threw up constantly the first year. It was like a norm after a while. I would get fills, unfills and so on but I only lost around 50 pounds after so many years. I managed to maintain my weight of 350-360 but still suffered from diabetes and my health was getting worse. So in 2007 the doctors left memphis in pursuit of another job in another state and that left a lot of people including myself with no one to manage fills. When I found two doctors in memphis one wanted 500 dollars and another wanted 250 to transfer over. When I got the money up I went with st. francis hospital which was the cheaper of the two. First fill with them was horrible. I couldnt keep saliva down it was so bad ended up with an upper respitory infection and an imediate unfill. I was so distraught that I told the nurse I want it out and to apply for gastric bypass. She was skeptical at first because she thought I might not get approved because it is an expensive surgery. To remove the band and convert over. I got approved with the first letter and then had to play catch up with them to complete all the test, ekg, pschology and nutrition classes.
I had my conversion over on June 23 2011. I was taken off of insulin 2 weeks after surgery and put on oral medication. I dont know how to be happy about it right now because I stil feel like I am going to fail. Just tryn to rap my head around this new experience because I never wanted to fail with the lap band. This time I am taking a different approach to this surgery and looking for and asking for all kind of help. I feel like this will happen for me know and thank GOD everyday that I am not suffering from diabetes and the effects that it had over my body.
I want to live and be happy with my self and enjoy this life that GOD has given me.
