TMnewlife
OMG 1 more day to go!
Aug 03, 2008
I am so excited, and scared, and excited, and scared...okay you get the picture. I am drinking my protein liquids and in my head I am starving to death trying to get through this pre=op clear liquid phase.
Tried to watch t.v. ---nope every commercial has food. Tried to read a magazine---nope FOOD again on every other page. I keep going to the frig opening up the door and just looking inside and I swear I am about to grab a grape or a carrot or something and just stuff it in my mouth and run away before anyone takes it away from me. Okay not really... but it is a fantasy that keeps replaying in my head.
I sure hope this feeling is going to go away after the surgery...I didn't have a "last supper" so now I am regretting it big time. I coulda , shoulda and still want to!
I am in total amazement that some folks could do this clear liquid thing pre surgery for a week or more... and survive.
Tried to watch t.v. ---nope every commercial has food. Tried to read a magazine---nope FOOD again on every other page. I keep going to the frig opening up the door and just looking inside and I swear I am about to grab a grape or a carrot or something and just stuff it in my mouth and run away before anyone takes it away from me. Okay not really... but it is a fantasy that keeps replaying in my head.
I sure hope this feeling is going to go away after the surgery...I didn't have a "last supper" so now I am regretting it big time. I coulda , shoulda and still want to!
I am in total amazement that some folks could do this clear liquid thing pre surgery for a week or more... and survive.
Sweet goldens
Jul 26, 2008
Teresa
OH my goodness!
Jul 26, 2008
That's it...I have finished all of my pre-op testing and have clearance for...lift off! Okay maybe not actually lift off ...but in 11 days I am starting on a journey to a new healthy life.
I promise to have a good attitude even when things get tough (and they will- such is life).
I promise to do my very best and then better than that when it comes to staying on track with my vitamins, protein, water and exercise.
I promise to never look back and only appreciate the fact that I now have a chance for a healthy future and a longer life.
I promise to ignore other people's negative comments and focus on what's best for me. (Wow that's a major change)
I promise that if I am ever in a position to help other people that are in a similiar situation to myself that I will do so to the best of my ability.
AND most importantly, I promise to thank GOD every single day for his love, and promise of forgiveness for my sins and eternal life through his Son Jesus Christ.
I promise to have a good attitude even when things get tough (and they will- such is life).
I promise to do my very best and then better than that when it comes to staying on track with my vitamins, protein, water and exercise.
I promise to never look back and only appreciate the fact that I now have a chance for a healthy future and a longer life.
I promise to ignore other people's negative comments and focus on what's best for me. (Wow that's a major change)
I promise that if I am ever in a position to help other people that are in a similiar situation to myself that I will do so to the best of my ability.
AND most importantly, I promise to thank GOD every single day for his love, and promise of forgiveness for my sins and eternal life through his Son Jesus Christ.
OH so sad.
Jun 27, 2008
I am absolutely at a loss. I was looking forward this evening to jumping online going to OH and reading the funny and informational posts that are here. This has become a haven for me to enjoy other people who have been there and done that. To get inspiration, knowledge and to make me laugh.
Not today.
I read the post about the death of Colleen after her RNY surgery on Monday. Okay we all know that there are very real risks associated with this surgery and that yes death is one of those risks and I barely knew her .... I mean I had read a couple of her posts and she had a bright attitude and a positive outlook on this whole WLS thing... and she seemed like everyone else here at OH...she seemed just like me..... not like someone that should have had her life ripped away from her when she was trying to do good and get healthy. My heart was broken and I am so sad for her family. Geez can I go through with this? The thought of it now seems so selfish after reading her daughter pleading for no one else to die having this surgery. I am okay with taking this risk for me and I absolutely know that it is the right thing to do for ME...but what about my family---am I being fair to them? I don't know the answer, and I don't know what to do.
Not today.
I read the post about the death of Colleen after her RNY surgery on Monday. Okay we all know that there are very real risks associated with this surgery and that yes death is one of those risks and I barely knew her .... I mean I had read a couple of her posts and she had a bright attitude and a positive outlook on this whole WLS thing... and she seemed like everyone else here at OH...she seemed just like me..... not like someone that should have had her life ripped away from her when she was trying to do good and get healthy. My heart was broken and I am so sad for her family. Geez can I go through with this? The thought of it now seems so selfish after reading her daughter pleading for no one else to die having this surgery. I am okay with taking this risk for me and I absolutely know that it is the right thing to do for ME...but what about my family---am I being fair to them? I don't know the answer, and I don't know what to do.
Another day closer
Jun 24, 2008
Well another day closer to having surgery... it just can't come quick enough for me. I still have over a month to go but I need to start practicing drinking 64 ounces a day and trying out some of this protein powder stuff (bleak!@^&^#$*). I have difficulty even smelling it much less getting it in my mouth. I'm just really looking forward to having the surgery over with so I can get down to business using my new tool. This whole waiting game is painful.
