toneemo
I've always considered myself "fat" , even when I wasn't so my body image has always been that of obese. I "yo-yo" dieted for many years, never happy with my size; even when it was a size 10! Finally when I turned 40, I decided to stop fighting that battle and just be "fat" so I became obese. Sure I dieted off and on but never with the intensity of my younger days. I hated myself for the weight and entered a cycle of depression. Hated myself for eating so I ate which made me hate myself more ... I'm sure you either know the drill or know someone who has experienced it.
Two years ago I went through the entire process up at OHSU, got denied by my insurance and really started putting on the pounds. Deciding that it was just too humiliating to go through all they put me through and then be denied so I gave up.
Then this year I happened to see an advertisement in the local newspaper for the Oregon Bariatric Center - went to a seminar and the rest is history!
