My life being overweight

Feb 17, 2009

I went to my pcp after doing some research of the different wls. I started going to her in October on my 33rd birthday. I need a change. I can't continue going through life trying to hide. As most of you know, being over weight is a giant obstacle that keeps you from suceeding and enjoying life. I've been overweight since childhood. Had to deal with kids teasing when I wasn't even that big. I quit school in 9th grade because we moved and with such a low self-esteem I couldn't bare starting over at a new school. I had my click of friends (which were all skinny) so going to the mall with them was a torture.
After getting married at 21 I wasn't huge but still self conscious. I was about 150 then. During my preganancy I gained a whopping 75 lbs. I suceeded in losing that with weight loss pills. Then a few years later I found out my husband was cheating. Then lost my job went into a major depression and the weight kept on coming. My husband and I tried to work things out but with insecurity and no trust we argued and it would always come back to my weight. He was never mean about it but of course without directly saying it he was ashamed of me.  We divorced when my daughter was 4. He left but the weight didn't.  My daughter is now 11 and even though I consider myself a strong independent woman I'm still stuck in my box.  I want to watch my 2 daughters grow up. Since being diagnosed with sleep apnea in 2007 I'm scared I'm going to go to sleep and not wake up.  I want to enjoy life. So that's why I'm praying I can get approved for this surgery. I have peach state and I've heard how hard it is. Since October I've been on a weight program with my pcp and have lost 15 pounds. But in the last month it was only 1/2 pound. I'm getting use to the diet pills so they don't work as good anymore so I'm at the end of my rope.  Through this website I found a doctor that accepts my insurance so the first step is to take the seminar this Saturday. Living two hours away from Atlanta is not going to be easy but if I can get approved it will all be worth it.
I haven't completely decided on which surgery but maybe after the seminar I'll have a better idea. Please keep me in your prayers.

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