VanishingCintura
So, where do I start? Like many of you, my fatness started in childhood. I've been obese since I was five.
Born in Panama to an American soldier and a native, I was a tiny little thing the first 5 years when my mom and dad were still together. Once they split and I came to the US with my father... all hell broke loose. Whereas my mom saw no problem in my normal child sized frame, my grandmother knew it was her job to "put some meat on them bones!" ...Well, the meat sure stuck.
I've been fortunate that I never really look as big as I weigh but that doesn't change anything. I remember trying to enlist and having the recruiter pull out a scale because he refused to believe I was over 100 lbs overweight. I mean.. yay for a pear shaped body but.. I was still unhealthy and not where I needed nor wanted to be.
All my childhood and adolescent years (once I returned to live with my mother 2 years later) were spent trying to lose the weight I'd gained. I did everything. Exercise, diets, fad diets, pills. At age 13, I'm downing more pills than Lindsay Lohan before a night on the town. It's been a roller coaster.
I've never really been quiet, and I love to perform and make people laugh... but there's always been that self doubt. I'm not gonna lie and say that the only reason I want the surgery is for my health, because I'm kinda looking forward to the aesthetic side effects. Shoot me for my honesty, but dammit, I'm gorgeous now... I can only imagine what I'd look like later. ...I'll probably hunt Jason Momoa down and convince him I'm his soulmate. Who knows?
So anyways, after YEARS of failed attempts and regaining everything I've lost .. I'm gonna try WLS. It's my last shot at this. At a better life. At sleepovers! (Because, let me tell you! I snore.. SO BAD.. like.. I can't have a bf.. it's horrible). At better health and better sleep (buh bye sleep apnea!)
I want this for a better me.. :)
