vbruce5366
Born a cubby 9 lb baby ...moved to a "Huskey" school age child and a overweight teenager, I never can remember being thin average or even "normal" I always had difficulty getting clothes that fit...My yearly 20's brought on a starvation diet in which I lost approx 75lbs but forever screwed up my body, never could I stop the struggle yo-yo dieting 75lbs up then 50 lbs down.... Food forever my drug and obsession ......sneak a candy bar and let the guilt keep me up for night's .....self hatered for failing to walk away and "just say no". At times I wish it was drugs or alcohol maybe it would be easier to give up then food. I believe after years of struggle with depression that there is some correlation with depression ..craving for carbs and obesity...I Believe in RNY after two years of lurking this forum I want help show the newbies that everyone has a story of struggle ....guilt ....and fear of failure and in the end this is a chance to be what we all desire an average weight notice I don't say thin or skinny...average ..normal and healthy is what I now accept and embrace........As I have done many of nights and days lurked and looked hoping that I to could loose weight ...I tell anyone looking and seeking support... You can do this ... I am a average everyday working mother and at 2 years post op I live the average life ...just 173 lbs less of me.......... May god bless you in you'r struggles .
