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Where do I begin. I had the rny 18 months ago and now stuggle to live day to day. I fight everyday for life because of my two children. I have no quality of life because I get so weak. I hardly ever get out except to go to the doctor and my mother has to come take me because I have blackouts. The worst thing is after having surgeries for hernia repairs, scar tissue removal, and jtube placement no doctor can figure out why I have all the pain nausea and malabsorption.  I have lost 200 lbs and now I have to do everything in my power to stay above 180. Once I get to below 190 I do not look just anorxia but I get also a grey color and black circles around my eyes. I lost my job as a nurse in april and about to loose everything. My mother whos only income is disibilty has bought groceries for the last two months so my children did not go hungery. I have emailed dr phil and oprah to tell the world my story because I fell as if my purpose in life is to make sure people know the dark side of gastric bypass. Please keep me in your prayers.

Well the day is almost here. I have surgery tomarrow at 1115. Everybody please be praying for me. I am so excited. I have to confess that the closer it came the more I almost backed out of it. I keep thinking I don't want to go the rest of my life without eating the MANY things I use to eat. Then I got to thinking thats why I am where I am and that there is no food more important than my health. I am a very self destructing person but this time was able to keep from letting it happen. I will post again as soon as I feel up to it. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read and respond.

12/03/2006 398 lbs  I am 16 days preop and counting. I have been waiting for this day for 4 years. The insurance where I work stopped covering it (in the middle of my clearences). Then in Sept of last year I married the love of my life. The insurance he has does cover it so I changed over to his. The hardest part has been to stop smoking, but now that I have what a relief. I smell people around me who still smoke and can't believe that is what I use to smell like all the time. In my journey I did find a medication that helped. I told my dad who smokes three packs a day and he has know been smoke free for 4 weeks. I am so excited. I feel as if I am being giving a second chance at life and I plan to do this one right. I have a 12 and 5 year old that I want to be able to play with and do things with. I have the most supportive husband and daughter. My son is to young to understand however he is already not to happy with the more healthy food choices being made in the home. LOL. My mom does not want me to have it done. She says its because she is scared of something happening to me. I explained to her if I don't, something will happen to me anyway as a result of my weight. All is good!!!