vogel_girl
I am 30 years old soon to be 31. I am a married mother of 2. I have a very low self esteem and just can't seem to be that once happy chic I was. I used to be a cheerleader and love rollerblading and bike riding. Now days it seems I work all the time and when i am not working I am so tired I dont feel like doing anything.
A few years ago I needed to have a complete hysterectomy and now take hormone replacement pills. I think I have gained atleast 30 lbs since then and it wont leave.
My family has a strong background of heart problems, obesity, diabetes, kidney failure, cancers, high cholesterol, and high blood pressure. I want to get my weight undercontrol before my health is completely gone.
I dont go out in public much because I hate feeling like people are judging me. I dont like the way I barely fit into the seats at my childrens programs. Everytime I go to the Dr they ask me if i have considered losing weight. Well Ofcourse I've considered it but its not like I can just forget it on a bus somewhere and be skinny! I have tried many things from weight Watchers to Atkins to counting calories. I would always get so far and then quit losing, get discouraged and give up.
I have been married over 10 years I met my husband when I weighed 145 lbs and I really wish to get back to that weight. Our life and our intamacy has been affected by my weight. He says its not but thats the way I feel. Its not even fun or sexy when your stomache jiggles and is just in the way. I cry alot becuase I want him to want me and am worried that he dont want me becuase of my weight. I want to feel human again.
I hate shopping! It seems like plus size clothing is more expensive than smaller clothes. Not to mention most of it is ugly...Why do they think that obese people want to wear flowers!
I am hoping that after this surgery i will be able to maintain a healthy weight. Get my grove back and my confidence. Well thats me! I am excited to meet new people on here and share stories. 
