2 weeks 2 days post op...I need people to talk to...

Jun 03, 2009

ok so I'm 2 weeks post op, feeling sooo much better. Still a little sore sometimes but it's definatly managable. I've had maybe 3 breakdowns since my surgery, the worst was going to my grandparents on memorial day. when we got there I had taken like a 2hr nap because everything I had done tended to wear me out, but when i woke up, I woke up to the smell of all my favorite foods. Potatoes, chicken, mac and cheese etc etc. I'm not gonna lie, I started to cry cuz i knew I couldn't have one bit of it and I was sitting in the living room while everyone was in the kitchen, laughing, having a good time and EATING! My bf had shown up when I woke up because I was going over to his aunts with him thankfully. I called for my mom becuase I was NOT going to go in the kitchen, and I just broke down when she came and gave me a hug. I'm a strong person, but I didn't realize how trying this was going to be. I'm able to be around ppl a little more when they eat, don't get me wrong it's still hard but ya know, this is what I wanted. I brought this on myself, and I have yet to say or think that I regret having it done. i know i need to be positive but it's hard for me when I have no one to talk to that has also had it done. i feel alone and my mom isn't entirely helping. She's trying to be so so supportive and she is a lot of times and she worries about me non stop, but it just feels like she forget how "vulnerable" I am right now...idk. I just need people to talk to. On the other hand and happier note, i'm down 25lbs :Dlol

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