And in the beginning, there was....weight.

Dec 07, 2010

Having reached epic highs in my weight, I have decided to do something I never thought I would do...seriously investigate bariatric surgery. I always thought I could do it on my own. I always thought if I just had enough will power...if only I would stop binge eating and learn how to soothe myself without gorging sugar...if only I could eat like everyone else. If only I could be normal. Normal. What the hell is that? I wasn't sure, but I knew I wasn't. I wanted to get out of the Food Fog that enveloped me whenever I opened a packet of potato chips or another cake. I wanted to fill that void with something that wouldn't kill me. The Void...the Hole inside that screams when it's empty and cries when it's full.
Criminy, I am so sick of this cycle...when you can eat anything and everything, nothing tastes good.
Due to my insurance, I am at least 5 months away from surgery...are there any other pre-ops out there in a similar situation? For you post -ops, what did you do to make the wait more bearable?
Thank you so much....
Nancy A.

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