yasmissa7
4 years ago
May 12, 2014
4 years ago today I had bariatric surgery. It was one of the scariest, but best decision I have ever made. Over the past 2 years I have fallen off the horse. I have gained 30 pounds and am extremely out of shape. For sure, I have lost sight of all those goals I once had. Finding my way back to get on track is another difficult task. The stresses of my daily life have me over whelmed most of the time. But, I can truly say that I very much want to reclaim control over my life and myself. I am willing to work and to fight for what I had & lost. It was a gift and I neglected it. Hopefully never again. yesterday I started the 5 day pouch test and am planning on being accountable for my actions. I have till sept 2014 to get my act together, as that is when I start Grad school for my NP. If I can't do it by then, I'm screwed. So happy 4th anniversary to me and here's to wishing me luck and happiness in moving forward to reclaiming my life.
Almost a year.
Apr 03, 2011
On May 12th, 2011 it will be my one year anniversary for my bariatric surgery. What a year. I feel like a new person. So many things have happened and I have changed to much. I am happy. Happiness is something to treasure and I am not about to loose it. Certainly I don't know what the future holds for me, but I am ready for it. I am down another 5 pounds. That really doesn't mean much, but it does mean I am still losing weight and I am only about 10 pounds from my goal. WOW! What an accomplishment. I am so proud of myself. So, on 5-12-11 I will be able to post my before and after pic. i can't wait.
Shame on me
Feb 19, 2011
On another not, even though I am not really losing alot of weight right now I am a size 10 and even then my pant/jeans are a little loose. That feels great. So can't wait for Srping to come. Need some good fresh air and exercise. Soon. Soon.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Dec 31, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEARS!! TONIGHT IS NEW YEARS EVE. TOMORROW MORNING STARTS A WHOLE NEW YEAR WITH A WHOLE NEW ME. MY CHRISTMAS WAS GREAT. LIFE IS EXTRA GREAT. I AM OUT OF MY MONTH LONG STALL. I AM DOWN TO 156 LBS. IT HAS BEEN AT LEAST 15 YEARS SINCE I HAVE SEEN THIS WEIGHT. I EVEN LOST WEIGHT DURING THIS HOLIDAY SEASON. PROUD. THAT IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. I FEEL PROUD OF MY ACCOMPLISHMENT. I HAVE LOST 89 LBS. I WEIGHED IN AT 245 ONE YEAR AGO. I HAVE 11 MORE POUNDS TO MAKE 100 LBS LOST AND 16 LBS TO MAKE GOAL WIEGHT. TRULY, I NEVER FELT I COULD GET HERE. IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY. WHAT A SPECIAL GIFT I HAVE BEEN GIVEN. HOW LUCKY I AM. I AM FINALLY THE PERSON I ALWAYS FELT THAT WAS TRYING TO GET OUT. SHE IS HERE & SHE IS ME. FINALLY. FINALLY. IT'S ME.
Monthly post running late
Dec 01, 2010
So, since I had my surgery I have faithfully posted once a month just as an update on my progess, but for some reason I forgot to post for November. Besides the fact that I have been overly busy this past month, I also have not lost any weight in the past 3 weeks. I have truely hit my first stall and it bites the big one-hard! The really bad part is, last week was Thanksgiving. And as much as I am glad that I didn't gain any weight, I would like to still be losing. Even a pound would make me happy at this point, but I get none-nothing. To make matters even worse, Christmas is only 3 weeks away. I don't know if I want to even think about that. All the food, food & more food, every where I go. At home, at work. It's making me crazy. I think, for the most part I eat really well. Protein, protein, protein & avoid carbs as much as possible. But I lack on my fluids & supplemets. And exercise in non-existant. I really have less time than ever to exercise. I am down to the last two weeks of this semester and it is crazy at how much stuff I have to do. 2 major papers, 2 presentations. I could just vomit. That doesn't include working 12 hours nights, no sleep and teaching a 16 hr PALS class this weekend. Did I mention the mountain of gifts that need wrapping or the christmas cards that need to be sent out. Oh yeah, and I forgot the 4 kids that think they need my undivided attention at all times. Sometimes I think my life can not get any more difficult, but life keeps finding more ways to send me more stress. How much can one women take? I am ready for a long break, a rest, anything where I can relax and not have to think about anything. Can I just go on autopilot for the rest of December Please???? Ok well, I didn't think so, I know I will get through it, just would like to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just can't yet.
How we change
Oct 11, 2010
I am thankful for what I have received. Not a day goes by that I don't remember the sad pathetic person I used to be. Hating life, myself and practically everyone & everything around me. No positive outlook on anything. No true goals or ambitions in my life. This has all changed for me now and thank god I am not that person. I still worry that I am still dreaming and will wake up and be that old version of me. I hate her and will do almost anything to not be her again. But thanks to her I can appreciate every thing that much more now. I can smile and it's a real smile-straight from the heart.
So, on different note. I have crossed over into a size 12 jeans. This is the first time I have been able to wear this size in about oh, say about 15 years. When I see this number I am, once again, amazed that I let myself go for so long.
Finally in the overweight category
Sep 17, 2010
Feeling Great
Aug 21, 2010
Constipation
Jul 25, 2010
On a good note I will be in Myrtle Beach in just under 2 weeks for a nice week long vacation with my family. I am looking forward to being able to wear a bathing suit for the first time in years. I know I don't look like the best body out there, but at least I don't have to be so self conscious and the constant need to "hide".
40 LBS GONE
Jun 25, 2010
So, I am just a little over 6 weeks post-op and am now a good solid 40 lbs down. 40 pounds that I will never see again. Good bye! My first month the weight literally fell off. It is going much slower now. Of course as impatient as I am I wish it would go faster. I so want to be under 200 lbs in the worst way. I haven't weighed 190 anything since like the 1990's. That is so scary. My size 18 clothes are becoming baggy on me now, but am feeling hesitant to try a smaller size. Very scared that they will be too tight and really not ready for any disappointment. So I will stick to my size 18's for a bit longer. I have a trip to the beach planned for August and am already having some anxiety about wearing a bathing suit. I really want to, but haven't in alot of years. (too many to count) My 13 yr old daughter is really a great inspiration. She is like a little mini coach. she pays attention to my protein intake and finds new recipes to try. How lucky am I. We are spending alot more quality mother-daughter time together...now that I have more energy than ever before. We do alot of hiking together which gives us a lot more time to talk. Again, can I say, How lucky am I to have such a great daughter. I could not ask for a better daughter. She is so awesome. (My biggest fan) I feel so blessed. I love my new life.