ylimemagic
My earliest memories of life are of being overweight. There wasn't a day that passed that I wasn't fat. Kids on the bus would get up and move to the other side of the bus when I got on to keep the bus from tipping. Kids can be mean. I dieted and ridiculously restricted my food intake to lose a little bit of weight right before college. But when I stopped taking the crazy diet pills (that made my heart palpitate) I gained every ounce back +50lbs. I cycle through being comfortable with who I am and what seems to be "normal" for my body and great waves of rage and humiliation. I felt like I was at least athletic and healthy until I gave birth to my beautiful daughter. The last 40 pounds has tipped the scale for me into the world of No Longer Healthy! I have tried WW, South Beach, Isagenix, Sugar Busters, Eat Right For Your Blood Type, Atkins, digestive supplements, acupuncture, portion control, cleansing/fasting...and the list goes and goes. I exercise regularly: walking, biking, Curves, swimming, hiking, snowboarding. I recently had knee surgery and have not been able to exercise yet. I didn't gain or lose any weight since the surgery. Which means that I worked out EVERY DAY and it didn't help my weight loss battle. My mother had an open RNY in 2000. Her experience of wls has not been incredibly graceful or successful, but it has given me hope. My whole family struggles with morbid obesity. Genetically there is something going on that doctors can't identify. RNY is the first glimpse of hope that I will live comfortably in my body. I can't wait! I want to feel sexy and young again. I am looking forward to feeling emotionally available to my husband and daughter. I have shut down to keep from letting the rage and embarassment consume me. I am ready to live again and this website and wls has shown me how to get there.
