Angry with myself...I need support
So I am on my two week liquid diet, I have lost only two pounds, struggling to not eat food, exhausted of feeling hungry and trying to prove to myself that I can do this. I am certainly having a moment, mostly just because if I have not lost enough weight and on Monday my surgeon is going to cancel my surgery as she stated that if I hadn't lost some more weight she would...hooray (insert sarcasm)
The whole trying to prove that I am serious about what I want I feel like I am failing myself and my husband and wasting everyone's time...but I really want this. I really don't have much support from friends let alone from family so I am finding that this is even harder to accomplish.
I do not know what I should do, reschedule my surgery and weigh in and save myself the embarrassment, or live the embarrassment and feel even more like a failure or if there is a way to lose some weight fast. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Let it out, vent, blog about it, cry if needed but don't give up. Don't give in to the voices in your head telling you to eat solid food.These two weeks feel like they are dragging out but you will look back a month post-op see it as nothing.
I have not gained a single pound but I haven't lost much either 2lbs in two months...I know it is no excuse but the stress of my doctor not telling me how much she wanted me to lose (she did the first time and I was confident and dropped the 8lbs she asked for). I am biking every day 8-10 miles every day (takes me about an hour to do) I know that my pants feel better on me and my oversized shirts sag down in the front showing more than I would care to share, even had to wear a polo I haven't been confident to put on in over a year (even then I wasn't confident).
I feel great, but the scale is not reflecting weight loss. I am praying that she wont cancel it, and I really don't think she is after the money. She is an awesome surgeon and I know she wants me to get away from the 60 BMI as much as possible to lower the risks and to shrink my liver.
If your pants are feeling different and you are going 8-10 miles/day on a bike you have to be building muscle. That negates alot of weight loss because muscle weighs more than fat.
you keep working out and eating/drinking the way you are and it will start to come off.
Good luck and keep us posted.
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