Struggling 3 months post op RNY

Since day 1 ive been miserable. I had to have 2 dilations, IV a few times for nutrition and fluids. Hospitalized for days. Then had to have emergency gallbladder removal which has made my stomach issues even worse. Constant bathroom trips daily now. My mental health is so bad right now because I feel so defeated. I am scared to eat because I don't know how my body will react at any point now. It's hard for me to talk to people about it (counselor). Any advice would be appreciated.