It has been awhile since I have been on here and have been doing bad. I know it, I have only lost 50 pounds and it is going on 2 years. I know the problem and it is me. I never dump, so I can eat anything, and I know I eat the wrong things. I am really trying to focus more and more. I know I am the only one who can do this, but it seams so hard to get back on track.
I am pretty sure I have made my pouch bigger, but I do not know if it can go back down, or will it stay big. I know it is more of a head thing for me, because I am full after eating an apple but I will keep eating bad things (chips, cookies, donuts) even though I am not hungry.
I tried to see a shrink but he kept asking me about my depression and it is like I am not depressed I love my job and my son, everything else seams to be ok in my life but I am addicted to food, the bad kinds.
I sometime wish I was back in the States in the hospital to have it done over again and wished I did not try that first chip, and then found out nothing happened, then I kept going. I kept waiting for dump and really wanted to dump, because I knew then that might stop me. But I am one of the ones that does not. I always knew this was going to be my problem, as junk food was what was my problem before.
I have been reading the book "The Expert's Guide to Weight-Loss Surgery" by Dre Garth Davis from Big Medicine and really wish I would have read it before the surgery, as it, at least I find very helpful. He also explains that you have to try and get this food addition under control.
I am not sure where to go or turn for help. I thought this would be easy and the weight would just melt off. The other problem is I am diabetic, so everything I eat, Carb wise, I have to take insulin for. And of course I am eating the wrong things to begin with.
I just do not know when I will wake up and have one of those Oh I get it moments, because if I do not get that wake up call soon, I am afraid it will be to late to lose the weight.
Just rambling on, but if you know the answer to the question, can we re-shrink our pouch and how, that might help.