Time to come clean-head issues

I don't think I will be able to succeed at getting my weight back down my head issues aren't going to let it. I was doing so good the last 2 days and planning/tracking and measuring. I then check my plan against what I had actually eaten and it was pretty close. So that put me at my self imposed calorie limit. Then the self sabotaging began. Tonight I even made my husband go out for a walk in the freezing cold and when we came home I made a nice hot green tea. I couldn't get food off my mind. I wanted to eat and I was crying because I wanted to eat and how I will never succeed. So I ended up having some celery with cucumbers and dip.

I've been to different councellors in my area even up to burlington and pass to try and get head help but I haven't had success finding any that worked. Maybe that's just me and I'm expecting them to fix something when I'm the one that has to fix it. I don't know I'm just upset.

Thanks for reading. Stay warm.

 Dawn,

I have little in the way of wisdom to share, but I will send you good vibes!


Dave....

I'm seeing a therapist and we are beginning cognitive behaviour modification therapy soon.. I have high hopes for it, as I have some things I def need to concur.
Personally I dont' think what you ate is that bad. If you can limit those times to only having something relatively healthy then I think that's a good step in the right direction.

 My only words of wisdom are stick as close to the program as your cravings will allow.  Always try to make the best possible choice.  Eat snacks that will fill you up and stay with you.  Definitely munching on celery and cucumbers is a great choice and depending on how you made the dip it maybe wasn't that bad either. Fat-free ranch dressing or greek yogurt with club house spices....I eat fibre one bars or popcorn sometimes when I just really want something different.

Don't beat yourself up.....keep moving and continue to try and make good choices. Yesterday can't be changed but tomorrow is a brand new day.  Keep the faith and keep at it....it isn't easy despite what many people think. It's a battle but we are equipped with our secret weapon which will help us win the war.  All the best.  Muriel

 Dear Dawn, I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so. Life can be very overwhelming at times. Wishing you the best in these difficult times. Denise

So sorry to hear that you are struggling.  Check out the Judith Beck book, she has concrete ideas for weight loss, including the struggles you are mentionning.  Here is a link to the website.  I had picked up the book at my library:

http://www.beckdietsolution.com/

Dawn:

I met with the therapist this week and she loaned me the Beck Book that another posted about. 

We talked about cravings and thoughts about food.  When the craving hits (or the thought for that matter), I am to examine why it is there.  Am I anxious, angry, lonely, bored, frustrated, sad? What is it that requires the Dopamine in food?  When I have determined that, I can recognize it for what it is.  I can then filll that hole with something other than food to make me feel better. I created a list of things that are non-food related that give me pleasure.

Another technique she mentioned was to put all the reasons I want to lose weight on different cue cards, 3 - 6 per card.  Then put these cards all around me (including in your purse) and refer to them when you are tempted.  It is a concrete reminder of why we are doing this.  She suggested to have one in the bathroom and read it first thing in the morning.

Not sure if any of these will work for you - just "food for thought"

i would repeat what others have said, look for a Cognitive Behavioural THerapy specialist. Have you tried overeaters anonymous?
That judith Beck book is good, someone else posted the link.

also, don't beat yourself up. Your snack is not that horrible. Very healthy.

I'm so sorry for your heartache, everyone here can relate. Sounds like a healthy choice you made. Thinking about food all the time isn't a crime, but makes it hard to resist. Can you make set times to eat and snack and that way if you want something you can tell yourself that the set time to eat is coming soon? Eat every 3 hours but no longer than 4 hours apart.
Be happy with small possitive changes, these are the ones that will stay.
I hear you about crying because you are denying yourself some kind of food, I have done that too.
Keep moving forward. And I think it's great you are coming here for support!!!