dreams and guilt
OMG I woke up in a panic and feeling guilty !! I had a dream that I ate a hotdog with extra ketchup and onions. It was so real that when I woke up I was like OMG I hope I don't puke, or get it stuck ! UGH !!! I sure don't wanna be dreaming about food, but yet I do. I'm 5 days out now and I'm not even hungry. I have yet to get down more than 2 drinks of a protein shake and I've tried many different kinds and flavors. I'm pretty much living on unsweetened tea, water and skim milk. It's a long time before pureed foods for me.
I think thise dreams are normal. I dreamed I brought a box of fried chicken to my first post op exam. Just as I took a big bite the nurse call me in. I wokeI up afraid that I had really eaten it. It was so real. When I realized it was only a dream I felt happy that I figured out a way to have fried chicken without really having it. This is hard but we'll get thru. I love the dreams that I have when I have already lost the weight and I am able to move real fast!
Had those dreams for about the first 10 days too. I dreamed about eating the forbidden foods both without remorse and also waking and thinking I had eaten something detrimental. Just yesterday was the first time I actually did eat something on the forbidden list for me at 2 weeks out. I love salad. As I was preparing a Cesar Salad for company, sI put a huge leaf of romaine lettuce in my mouth to sample the dressing, and had to go running for a tissue quick. The crunch was the thing that jarred my brain. My Dr said no salad for 3-4 months.