So many emotions

Hello

so I'm scheduled to have RNY aug 19th it was put over from may 4th due to COVID-19

right now I'm trying to gather everything I need for my journey and I got my scale from amazon today. I stepped on it expecting my usual 380 something and saw 391? I'm so disappointed in myself. I feel like a huge buffalo no wonder I feel like crap. I wish I could hide inside until surgery day. Anyone else as big as me on here that went through RNY? How did it go?

Most of the world has gained weight during the pandemic. All you can do now is start over and make life better. I am glad you have a scale. The best thing you can do is step on it every single day of your life.

If I don't do that I go into denial and I gain weight.

A good place to find weight loss surgery stories of people much bigger than you is to watch episodes of My 600 Lb Life. I buy them from Amazon and have watched every episode.

Good luck with your surgery and please keep us updated.

You can only start where you are. I was at my highest weight at time of surgery. Just know that you are making a decision to choose your health.

I was at my highest weight of 291 before surgery. I was supposed to be on a 6 month physician supervised diet, but I ran into many difficulties and my stress was through the roof so I actually gained 14lbs on this "diet".

We have all been there, it doesn't matter where you start as long as you continue on the journey. Don't beat yourself up just move forward making better choices. You've got this!

my highest weight was 373

Thanks for the response everyone feeling much better today and a lot more hopeful ?